再也没有一首歌
比这首更能把这阵子的心情勾划得如此具体
分离
也许冰冷
回忆
才是最可怕的敌人
詞：吳青峯 曲：吳青峯
心疼的玫瑰 半夜還開著 找不到匆匆掉落的花蕊
回到現場卻已來不及 等待任何回音都不可得
微弱的風箏 冬天裡飄著 回不去手中纏線的那個
沒有藍天 又何必去飛 怎麼適合
黑色笑靨掉了 雪白眼淚掉了 該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了
瞳孔沒有顏色 結了冰的長河 回憶是最可怕的敵人
故事情節掉了 主角對白掉了 該屬於劇中的對角戲也掉了
胸口沒有快樂 斷了翅的白鴿 不枯萎的藉口全掉了
曾經唱過的歌 分享過的笑聲 在心中不斷拉扯
想念不能承認 偷偷擦去淚痕 冬天過了還是會很冷
黑色笑靨掉了 雪白眼淚掉了 該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了
瞳孔沒有顏色 結了冰的長河 回憶是最可怕的敵人
故事情節掉了 主角對白掉了 該屬於劇中的對角戲也掉了
胸口沒有快樂 斷了翅的白鴿 不枯萎的藉口全掉了
I made a promise to blog about BTN Camp 2 weeks ago (LOL) but due to laziness, the plan was procrastinated.
Thank you Lee Chin for reminding me to blog about the camp (it was few days ago, haha). It’s time to work my fingers.
First of all, allow me to do some definition.
BTN = Biro Tatatnegara
BTN Camp = A mandatory 5 days 4 nights camp for all JPA scholars and whoever using government’s $$ to further their education overseas.
It’s a very controversial camp, with rumours (some are true) about racism and discrimination. Well, it depends on the facilitators, trainers and location of the camp.
If you are lucky enough, you can survive the camp without serious hardship. If you don’t wanna risk it, DON’T EVER ACCEPT GOVERNMENT’S $$ TO FUND YOUR EDUCATION. Go for other scholarships / use your parents’ $$ to study abroad / replace your parents with wealthier ones / study locally etc.
I think I was quite lucky because most of the facilitators here were good and open-minded, or at least they tried their best to act that way. Some were irritating, but not a very big issue.
The name of the camp is Kursus Kenegaraan Mahasiswa ke Luar Negara. If you didn’t fail BM in SPM, you can get a rough idea of what the camp is about. Basically the sole objective of the camp is to instil a sense of (or great deal of)patrotism into all attendees.
So throughout the entire course, you’ll get a recap of the nation’s history. It felt like attending history lessons in secondary school, the only difference is that this time, you have to prove that you really understand what it means by being patriotic. You have to do something to show that you love this country. Just try your best to ACT.
OK, enough boring stuff. I’ll let the pictures do the talking. I won’t tell everything here because 5 days is not a short period.
Duration of the course: 31 May to 4 June ( 5 days 4 night)
Venue: Kem Bina Negara, Tanjung Rhu, Sepang
(An extremely secluded piece of land, escaping will only put you into
another worse position, and very poor mobile signal, almost nil.)
16 person sharing a dorm, not something I enjoy…
No wall fan around, super hot in the afternoon.
Daniel (photographer) and Ah Wong missing.
The formal dress code was short-sleeved white shirt and dark-coloured slack.
I know…
Auditorium
The super comfortable and sleep-inducing “theatre” where we
attended facilitators’ slide presentation and other activities.
Every aspect of us will be evaluated, contributing to 40% of total score,
the other 60% comes from exam on the last day.
Me and Chee Kit (the tallest guy I’ve ever met).
We were asked to close our eyes and mimic the gestures of a musical conductor,
but it turned out that some were dancing instead.
I wasn’t allowed to use my phone to snap pictures, but since the facilitators were enjoying the show so much, no one would notice me doing that.
I wanted to try that sooooo much but too bad, no chance due to lack of trainers.
Picture taken from inside of auditorium through window pane.
In one of the LDKs (Latihan dalam Kumpulan), we were asked to list the characteristics of the people in the picture. So we came out with “pembelot”, “pengkhianat”, “berpeluk tubuh”, “mata duitan” etc etc etc…
Then my group’s facilitator asked: “Adakah anda familier d’ngan semue ni?”
No one answered. Then he continued: “ Ini adalah sifat-sifat yang saye nampak dari diri anda semue! Kalau anda masih tak berubah, andalah yang bakal menghapuskan negare kite ni… … … Saye rase anda TIDAK LAYAK menerima biasiswa JPA… … Name Agong tak tau! Name permaisuri tak tau!… …”
My favourite activity of all. It was the first and dirtiest and stinkiest jungle trekking ever had.
Eric, me, Stephanie and Vee Kee.
What a seclusion…
Back: Ah Wong, Vanessa, Stehanie, Vee Kee, Eric.
Front: Susu, me.
We waited for the others to arrive and were not allowed to take shower. All of us were dirty, smelly, tired, hungry and wounded. When we were released to have our dinner, I rushed back to the dorm to bath so that I don’t have to compete with others for the washroom later. After refreshing myself, I went to the canteen to have dinner with Eric. My group members left us plenty of food.
Million thanks for being so kind and considerate!
It was Thursday night, the last night there. I had the BEST dinner since arrival with Eric, later joined by Gabriel, Mizan and Christine. We stayed there until it was almost time to assemble at the auditorium for the last session with the facilitators.
On Friday, we were allowed to wake up and assemble late so that we can do last minute revision for the exam and to pack our stuff. The exam was ridiculously easy. I think all of us managed to pass. We had our lunch after that and waited for the buses to come take us back to KTT.
Back at KTT, I waited for a few hours for a van to arrive, to take me and some other desperate friends to KTM. Not long after that, we were already lying inside coaches, on our way to Singapore… 
the 100th post!
YEA~~!!!
Most people reached their 100th post within the first 2 years
since the establishment of their blog. But I reached mine after 3 years the first post was written. I know I’m slow.
But who cares?! LOL.
As long as I made it this far,
time taken is not important!
To celebrate, let me share with you something very very personal,
something I don’t usually share with people,
even the closest ones.
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I just received my new IC this afternoon.
Don’t ceh la, the story doesn’t end here. Continue reading k?
Before I go further,
here’s a little piece of info for those of you who haven’t renew your IC and are still holding the old one which you had it since 12 years old:
1. You can renew your IC between 18 y.o. an
d 25 y.o. with a payment of just RM10.
2. If you renew your IC after 25 y.o., you will be charged RM40.
Additional RM20 will be imposed for every subsequent year after 25 y.o..
OK let’s continue the journey.
The officer made a cut almost half-way through my old IC and put it into a drawer.
I wanted to take back my old IC as a keepsake but the officer refused to return it. According to him, the old IC will be sent to Putrajaya for further processing and I am not allowed to keep it.
Memories are not meant to last forever?
过去让它过去～～
I guess.
I forgot to snap a picture of “myself” in my old IC.
So what I can do now is just to take a picture of a photostated old IC and compare the old me (old as in last time, not the old OLD) with the current me.
Quit this page if you are not interested to find out how time can age a kid.
For your info, I’m 20 but
I AM STILL YOUNG.
LOL.
If you insist to carry on, please refrain from shouting, laughing, fainting
or having any extreme emotions.
If you really can’t help it, please keep it to yourself and don’t ever let me know.
Your co-operation is highly appreciated, TQ.
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2002 / 2010
Instead of growing older, I think I’m actually turning younger, hahahahaha,
probably because the first picture looks like the kind of picture my dad took in 1960s.
Most people were shocked when they saw the picture in my old IC, reasons unknown. One friend even commented that I used to look like samseng or the kind of bully you can find in school who really needs some lessons taught.
I think the only differences between the 2 pictures are my hair style and spectacles. The rest are quite similar.
All these prove that I did notage at all.
Hahahahaha.
What do you think??
Anyway, time passes and people change.
I changed, and am still changing, hopefully to the better (inside and outside).
By the time I reach 22, which is in year 2012,
I hope that I’ve grown to be a mature guy (I’m still childish sometimes)
who is independent, able to make wise decisions quick and
most importantly will look
this HOT!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA… … … (continues indefinitely)
This is A DREAM,
and it will be the sole resolution for the coming years.
I know it sounds funny, stupid and impractical,
but for those of you who know me well,
I always make my dream a reality.
Enough nonsense truth, I revealed waaaaaaaay too much of myself today.
I shall not repeat such mistake again by being toooo off-topic.
Remember? This is my 100th post.
To say something more relevant,
I’d like to thank you for supporting my blog,
despite my constant disappearance and lack of update.
Coming up…
Updates on
BTN Camp
&
Singapore Trip
So
stay tuned!
XOXO
