Saturday 16 May 2009

Scholarship virus


An outbreak of why-didn’t-I-get-the-JPA-scholarship endemic has started few days ago. The influenza biasiswa is known to the nation as being annual, and for reasons unknown, there is still no vaccine available. As history suggests, the virus will linger in the community for a considerable amount of time, inflicting frustration and gloom before vanishing into silence.

It can be seen from the newspapers and TV news that students who did not manage to secure themselves with the scholarship were voicing their protest and dissatisfaction, despite obtaining bunch of A1’s in SPM. Some got the scholarship offer, but it is not what they wanted, e.g. different course or scholarship to study locally instead of overseas.

Such chaos happens every year, and the reasons and causes behind all these were… many. Due to my “identity”, I must not comment in depth. However, I’d still like to provide a few dosages of opinion (just what I think).

I understand that many people are very disappointed. They have worked very hard and getting the scholarship is the best present to compensate whatever they have sacrificed. However, luck was not at their side. Yes, LUCK. It is even more frustrating when a person who got 14A1’s did not get the scholarship while another person with only a dozen got it.

There are plenty of reasons causing the scholarship to slip from their fingers, one of which is the course they applied for. Here, I’ll just talk about medic. The number of applications for medic is more than threefold the number of scholarships actually available. It seems like so many people wanted to become doctor. But are they really ready for it? Are they sure that they will hold no grudges when they are forced to work 36 hours continuously, looking more like patients than the patients?

People may wonder how it feels being a scholar, especially JPA scholar. As such, they will start fantasizing about the glory and money and everything sweet. As time passes, the thought of getting the scholarship rooted deep in their mind, and they get super sad when they don’t have it. It is even more sad to see parents saying things like: “ … all the efforts are wasted…” Is studying really just about getting scholarship?

What I can say is that getting JPA scholarship is just a brief burst of fame. But after that, life goes on. With all eyes on you, you have to work thousand times harder than you were. Also, the scholarship does not guarantee you a flight ticket to study abroad. With greater challenges, harder syllabuses and more competition, can you handle the pressure?

There is also no turning back. If you regret making the decision, you will face the fate of paying back all the money the government spent on you, and it’s a really BIG sum of $$$. Unless you come from a wealthy background, then there should not be a problem. But why taking the scholarship when your parents can afford to send you study overseas?

If you did not get the scholarship, calm down and don’t feel upset. Maybe there’s a blessing in disguise?

OK, it’s time to return to the alphas and betas, sine, cos and tan. Ciao!

Tuesday 12 May 2009

Trash

It should be a very long chain of words here, full of rancour, but accidents happen in life, no matter how we dislike them.

I'm extremely reluctant to re-type everything that was here few minutes before, because the fact that doing this will just resurrect everything evil and this would possibly affect the quality of sleep I shall have later stops me from doing this. Just ask me if you are curious enough to want to have everything clarified. I'll answer you vocally.

Lets KISS (keep it short & simple).

Tomorrow is the first day of AS exam, beginning with Pure Maths 1. Here, I wish those who are reading this and will be taking any sort of exam ALL THE BEST and MAY WE SCORE WITH FLYING COLOURS!

I'll be returning to the place of sorry sight this afternoon instead of evening. Wish me luck.

Monday 11 May 2009

Don't be stupid

2 more days to the fate-determining AS exam
Pure Maths 1 marks the start
also bringing me closer to the end of anxieties, uncertainties
everything unnecessary



fear is crawling on my body


perhaps...
a sinful bite on
the heavenly
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creamy ~ rich Belgian coverture chocolate ~ white chocolate filling
aka chocolate indulgence
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could shake it off
a
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don't forget
the softness # the taste # the residual fragrance
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it's time to...
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SLEEP and STOP DREAMING
LWL!



Friday 1 May 2009

All about DREAMS

I had my IELTS presentation yesterday. Luckily there was enough time for my group to present it, so we don’t have to wait until next week. Phew~~

The topic: DREAMS

It was a Power Point presentation and I was the last one in the group to present. For that few minutes, I took the role of “dream interpreter”. As the name suggests, yes, I interpret dreams.

Dream Interpretation: the process of assigning meaning to dreams.

Some of the info I presented were…


CHASE DREAMS


If in the dream, you are
pursued by an attacker, and you re running away from he/she/it
the dream suggests that you are avoiding a problem in your waking life

you are the chaser
you have the drive and ambition to go after something you want / you are falling behind

FLYING DREAMS

flying with ease and enjoying the scene and landscape below
you are on top of a situation

having difficulties staying in flight
lack of power in controlling your own circumstances

feeling fear when you are flying / flying too high
you are afraid of challenges and of success


FALLING DREAMS

The dreams indicate that…

you are feeling overwhelmed and out of control in some situation in your waking life

you fear of failing in your job/school, loss of status, or failure in love

TEETH DREAMS

If in your dream, you have your teeth crumble in your hands, fall out one by one with just a light tap, grow crooked or rot, the dream

reflects your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you

you fear of being embarrassed

you are experiencing a sense of powerlessness

TEST DREAMS

If you dream that you are taking a test/exam, the dream

indicates that you are being put to a test or being scrutinized in some way
suggests that you may feel unprepared for a challenge
is an indication that you are being judged

Lastly,

NAKED DREAMS
o.0

In the dream, if you are

naked in public
you may be hiding something and are afraid that others can see right through you

naked at work / in a classroom
you are unprepared for a project at work or school

naked in your dream, but no one else seems to notice
the dream implies that your fears are unfounded

proud of your nakedness and show no shame or embarrassment
the dream symbolizes your unrestricted freedom / you are drawing the wrong kind of attention


Interesting???


In general, I gave myself a score of 8 out of 10 for my presentation. I used to be very nervous when I was delivering a presentation and I tend to have frequent “technical problems”. But this time, I managed to suppress my anxiety to a not-so-harmful level and this allowed me to sail smoothly till the end.


Tips for those who want to give a good (at least not very bad ) presentation:
Say it LOUD and SLOW
Search for people where you can have EYE CONTACT with


Hope they help!