dominate or coexist?

放过我吧

2010-10-11T00:47:00.003+08:00

来到印度差不多三个月了，感觉自己老了很多，成熟很多。

那么多年来，不管日子再怎么难，我都撑过去了。来到这里也不例外。不管多么难受，我都硬撑，死撑。

这一刻，我不想再欺骗自己了。我真的受够了，累了。已经发烧八天了，已经过了八天不开心的日子，也错过了会让我开心的每一件事情。我每天都过得战战兢兢，不敢乱吃，不敢有激烈的情绪，不断用手掌贴在额头探温。每天都期待隔天醒来会是全新，健康的一天。深怕一觉醒来会无力，头晕或头痛。每天祈祷着同样的东西，却每天都被辜负。

还记得有一晚，身体发冷到差不多令我放弃的地步。整晚睡不着，不断搏斗。过了几个小时，身体却又变得火烧般热。挨了几个小时好不容易睡着，却又得从短暂的睡眠爬起来，像没事般如常上课。

去医院被人当人球踢来踢去就算了，而且还不只一天。被人抽了一大管子的血也算了，但病情却不见得有起色。明明感觉身体逐渐康复，却又突然发生让我梦醒的事情。本以为自己已经痊愈，特意吃大餐奖励自己。美食刚吃完，就马上感觉身体出现变化。天气同时转冷，身体热起来，却又分不清是烧未退或只是身体应对天气的改变。

吃完晚餐，大伙儿很兴奋地嚷着去打桌球再吃雪糕。本应是难忘的夜生活，我满脑子只想着回宿舍洗澡睡觉，希望早日康复。

一位好心的学长骑摩托送我回宿舍，让我不必孤孤单单地乘搭auto。实在感谢他。洗澡时满脑子的感概。尤其是想念认识多年的老朋友：立恩，俊杰，宁芮，淑玲。如果这时你们在我身边，或者我还在马来西亚，那该多好。想着想着，真的很想哭，但还是按奈着情绪。

你们啊，现在在干嘛？健康吗？愿一切美好。

回忆是最可怕的敌人

2010-06-28T15:46:00.006+08:00

再也没有一首歌

比这首更能把这阵子的心情勾划得如此具体

分离

也许冰冷

回忆

才是最可怕的敌人

詞：吳青峯曲：吳青峯

心疼的玫瑰半夜還開著找不到匆匆掉落的花蕊
回到現場卻已來不及等待任何回音都不可得

微弱的風箏冬天裡飄著回不去手中纏線的那個
沒有藍天又何必去飛怎麼適合

黑色笑靨掉了雪白眼淚掉了該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了
瞳孔沒有顏色結了冰的長河回憶是最可怕的敵人

故事情節掉了主角對白掉了該屬於劇中的對角戲也掉了
胸口沒有快樂斷了翅的白鴿不枯萎的藉口全掉了

曾經唱過的歌分享過的笑聲在心中不斷拉扯
想念不能承認偷偷擦去淚痕冬天過了還是會很冷

黑色笑靨掉了雪白眼淚掉了該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了
瞳孔沒有顏色結了冰的長河回憶是最可怕的敵人

故事情節掉了主角對白掉了該屬於劇中的對角戲也掉了
胸口沒有快樂斷了翅的白鴿不枯萎的藉口全掉了

BTN Camp

2010-06-27T17:30:00.004+08:00

I made a promise to blog about BTN Camp 2 weeks ago (LOL) but due to laziness, the plan was procrastinated.

Thank you Lee Chin for reminding me to blog about the camp (it was few days ago, haha). It’s time to work my fingers.

First of all, allow me to do some definition.

BTN = Biro Tatatnegara

BTN Camp = A mandatory 5 days 4 nights camp for all JPA scholars and whoever using government’s $$ to further their education overseas.

It’s a very controversial camp, with rumours (some are true) about racism and discrimination. Well, it depends on the facilitators, trainers and location of the camp.

If you are lucky enough, you can survive the camp without serious hardship. If you don’t wanna risk it, DON’T EVER ACCEPT GOVERNMENT’S $$ TO FUND YOUR EDUCATION. Go for other scholarships / use your parents’ $$ to study abroad / ~~replace your parents with wealthier ones~~ / study locally etc.

I think I was quite lucky because most of the facilitators here were good and open-minded, or at least they tried their best to act that way. Some were irritating, but not a very big issue.

The name of the camp is Kursus Kenegaraan Mahasiswa ke Luar Negara. If you didn’t fail BM in SPM, you can get a rough idea of what the camp is about. Basically the sole objective of the camp is to instil a sense of (or great deal of)patrotism into all attendees.

So throughout the entire course, you’ll get a recap of the nation’s history. It felt like attending history lessons in secondary school, the only difference is that this time, you have to prove that you really understand what it means by being patriotic. You have to do something to show that you love this country. Just try your best to ACT.

OK, enough boring stuff. I’ll let the pictures do the talking. I won’t tell everything here because 5 days is not a short period.

Duration of the course: 31 May to 4 June ( 5 days 4 night)

Venue: Kem Bina Negara, Tanjung Rhu, Sepang

(An extremely secluded piece of land, escaping will only put you into

another worse position, and very poor mobile signal, almost nil.)

The Dorm

16 person sharing a dorm, not something I enjoy…

My bed, the upper bunk

No wall fan around, super hot in the afternoon.

School boy-looking dorm-matezz

Daniel (photographer) and Ah Wong missing.

The formal dress code was short-sleeved white shirt and dark-coloured slack.

I know…

Auditorium

The super comfortable and sleep-inducing “theatre” where we

attended facilitators’ slide presentation and other activities.

People cramming to sign their attendance

Every aspect of us will be evaluated, contributing to 40% of total score,

the other 60% comes from exam on the last day.

Fellow Manipal-ians

Me and Chee Kit (the tallest guy I’ve ever met).

Guys watching girls dancing

We were asked to close our eyes and mimic the gestures of a musical conductor,

but it turned out that some were dancing instead.

I wasn’t allowed to use my phone to snap pictures, but since the facilitators were enjoying the show so much, no one would notice me doing that.

Tower for flying-fox and abseiling

I wanted to try that sooooo much but too bad, no chance due to lack of trainers.

Picture taken from inside of auditorium through window pane.

A comical scene displaying factors contributing to the fall of ancient Malacca

In one of the LDKs (Latihan dalam Kumpulan), we were asked to list the characteristics of the people in the picture. So we came out with “pembelot”, “pengkhianat”, “berpeluk tubuh”, “mata duitan” etc etc etc…

Then my group’s facilitator asked: “Adakah anda familier d’ngan semue ni?”

No one answered. Then he continued: “ Ini adalah sifat-sifat yang saye nampak dari diri anda semue! Kalau anda masih tak berubah, andalah yang bakal menghapuskan negare kite ni… … … Saye rase anda TIDAK LAYAK menerima biasiswa JPA… … Name Agong tak tau! Name permaisuri tak tau!… …”

Kembara

My favourite activity of all. It was the first and dirtiest and stinkiest jungle trekking ever had.

People emerging from the “hole”

Crossing leech-ful river

Eric, me, Stephanie and Vee Kee.

More climbing

We destroyed people’s vege farm on our way back to camp. Sorry~~ XD

Kem Bina Negara!

What a seclusion…

The first batch of survivors who made it back to the camp!

Back: Ah Wong, Vanessa, Stehanie, Vee Kee, Eric.

Front: Susu, me.

We waited for the others to arrive and were not allowed to take shower. All of us were dirty, smelly, tired, hungry and wounded. When we were released to have our dinner, I rushed back to the dorm to bath so that I don’t have to compete with others for the washroom later. After refreshing myself, I went to the canteen to have dinner with Eric. My group members left us plenty of food.

Million thanks for being so kind and considerate!

It was Thursday night, the last night there. I had the BEST dinner since arrival with Eric, later joined by Gabriel, Mizan and Christine. We stayed there until it was almost time to assemble at the auditorium for the last session with the facilitators.

On Friday, we were allowed to wake up and assemble late so that we can do last minute revision for the exam and to pack our stuff. The exam was ridiculously easy. I think all of us managed to pass. We had our lunch after that and waited for the buses to come take us back to KTT.

Back at KTT, I waited for a few hours for a van to arrive, to take me and some other desperate friends to KTM. Not long after that, we were already lying inside coaches, on our way to Singapore…

My blog is finally OLD!

2010-06-10T23:50:00.020+08:00

Finally

the 100th post!

YEA~~!!!

Most people reached their 100th post within the first 2 years

since the establishment of their blog. But I reached mine after 3 years the first post was written. I know I’m slow.

But who cares?! LOL.

As long as I made it this far,

time taken is not important!

To celebrate, let me share with you something very very personal,

something I don’t usually share with people,

even the closest ones.

I just received my new IC this afternoon.

Don’t ceh la, the story doesn’t end here. Continue reading k?

Before I go further,

here’s a little piece of info for those of you who haven’t renew your IC and are still holding the old one which you had it since 12 years old:

1. You can renew your IC between 18 y.o. an

d 25 y.o. with a payment of just RM10.

2. If you renew your IC after 25 y.o., you will be charged RM40.

Additional RM20 will be imposed for every subsequent year after 25 y.o..

OK let’s continue the journey.

The officer made a cut almost half-way through my old IC and put it into a drawer.

I wanted to take back my old IC as a keepsake but the officer refused to return it. According to him, the old IC will be sent to Putrajaya for further processing and I am not allowed to keep it.

Memories are not meant to last forever?

过去让它过去～～

I guess.

I forgot to snap a picture of “myself” in my old IC.

So what I can do now is just to take a picture of a photostated old IC and compare the old me (old as in last time, not the old OLD) with the current me.

Quit this page if you are not interested to find out how time can age a kid.

For your info, I’m 20 but

I AM STILL YOUNG.

LOL.

If you insist to carry on, please refrain from shouting, laughing, fainting

or having any extreme emotions.

If you really can’t help it, please keep it to yourself and don’t ever let me know.

Your co-operation is highly appreciated, TQ.

2002 / 2010

Instead of growing older, I think I’m actually turning younger, hahahahaha,

probably because the first picture looks like the kind of picture my dad took in 1960s.

Most people were shocked when they saw the picture in my old IC, reasons unknown. One friend even commented that I used to look like samseng or the kind of bully you can find in school who really needs some lessons taught.

I think the only differences between the 2 pictures are my hair style and spectacles. The rest are quite similar.

All these prove that I did notage at all.

Hahahahaha.

What do you think??

Anyway, time passes and people change.

I changed, and am still changing, hopefully to the better (inside and outside).

By the time I reach 22, which is in year 2012,

I hope that I’ve grown to be a mature guy (I’m still childish sometimes)

who is independent, able to make wise decisions quick and

most importantly will look

this HOT!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA… … … (continues indefinitely)

This is A DREAM,

and it will be the sole resolution for the coming years.

I know it sounds funny, stupid and impractical,

but for those of you who know me well,

I always make my dream a reality.

Enough ~~nonsense~~ truth, I revealed waaaaaaaay too much of myself today.

I shall not repeat such mistake again by being toooo off-topic.

Remember? This is my 100th post.

To say something more relevant,

I’d like to thank you for supporting my blog,

despite my constant disappearance and lack of update.

Coming up…

Updates on

BTN Camp

Singapore Trip

stay tuned!

XOXO

Harassment

2010-05-17T00:31:00.002+08:00

Date: 16th May 2010, Sunday

Time: Around 7.30pm

Venue: Mid Valley’s bus stop

Subject: An uncle in his 50s

I had waited for a bus to go home for an hour. I wasn’t in a good mood and was sweating badly. Suddenly an uncle intercepted my daydream and started talking to me. He looked friendly at first, but things started to change pretty soon.

Below is the conversation we had. He talked a lot but I only remembered certain things. Before you carry on, please note that the following conversation is for people above 18 and contains explicit adult contents. Read at your own risk. Should you feel any discomfort, please discontinue reading and consult a physician/psychologist/counsellor etc if symptoms persist.

Reminder: READ AT YOUR OWN RISK…

It was very noisy around me, so I can only hear certain things he said. Most of the time I kept saying “pardon?” and “ar?”. We conversed in Cantonese.

U= Uncle

M= Me

(simplified and censored version)

U: You waiting for U71? (RapidKL bus number)

M: No, U60.

U: It’s very hard to get U71 here, only 1 bus every hour.

M: Same goes for U60. I had been waiting for an hour.

U: *knod knod* Where do you live?

M: Puchong.

U: Are you a student?

M: Yes.

U: What are you studying now?… (boring stuffs, so let’s skip to the interesting

part) Are you @#$%^? ^&*@? B?

M: Har???

U: Are you straight? Curved? Or B?

M: Har??? Pardon? I can’t hear you… (too noisy due to vehicles passing by)

U: Do you like girls? Some guys like guys, some even like both, that is called

B, bisexual.

M: Oohh…

U: What’s your name?

M: Alex. (lol…)

U: Can give me your surname?

M: Tan (LOL…)

We shook hands, and I regretted doing that not long later.

U: You know Mandarin right?

M: *shakes head* Nooo… (starts pretending as a “banana”, which I always do

when facing a stranger)

U: Then can you read Mandarin?

M: *shakse head and smiles*…

U: Like that ar… Can read English right?

M: Ya…

U: I can recommend some girls to you, all very young and beautiful etc etc… (I

forgot) You give me your number, come come *takes out pen and preparing to

write in his palm*…

M: *shakes head and smiles* no thanks…

U: No need shy shy la, first time sure like that one. Many people kept saying

no initially but after trying, they demanded more and more. Some even

requested the girls to send them their nude photos. You know, boobs, vajayjay.

COME LA, give me your number. I introduce a few girls to you. Be friends first,

then later see what you wanna do.

M: No need.

U: Come la! Why like that? You don’t wanna know some new friends meh? Be

friends with them la, friends only…

M: It’s ok, I have many friends already…

U: Aiyoh! Just a few more friends only ma… U have girlfriend?

M: No.

U: I see you talk very softly. You like guys right? I have some boys here also. They

“did” a few times only. Some very cute one, some muscular, sexy. Come, give

me your number, I send their pictures to you to choose. After you have made

your decision, you tell me. I arrange for you.

M: Really no need.

U: Aiyoh! I know one, guys who wear specs are very horny one I tell you. They may

look normal but actually they very vigorous.

M: *Ignoring and trying hard to look at buses’ number*

The fella kept talking rubbish which I didn’t bother to care. The things I wanted most was to go home and bathe, not some anonymous hot babes/dudes. So I carried on reading buses’ sign as there were more and more buses approaching, leaving that idiot outta my mind (too busy!).

Finally!

U: @##$#$%@#$&*&*%… That is called Sex Partner, @#@$#$$%…

I walked to the bus and climbed into it. Finally the world around me returned to its peaceful state and even better, it was air-conditioned.

In the bus, I wiped my palm on the seat a few times, feeling very disgusted and wondering if there’s any disease being transmitted to me during that short moment of contact.

Moral of the story: Don’t ever entertain strangers, especially those who showed

interest in you suddenly.

Ignorance = bliss?

2010-05-13T22:31:00.005+08:00

Seriously… I dunno how things work.

There was a visit to Hospital Serdang this morning and there will be another visit to UM next Monday and I’m not involved in either of them. =(

The lists of students selected for each of the events were released few days ago and my name was not found.

I didn’t mean that my name MUST be in the lists but at least, I DERSERVE to be selected.

First,

visit to Hospital Serdang. Rumour has it that people were chosen based on their attendance in Kannada class. It’s true that I skipped some of the classes but comparatively, I attended more classes than most of the people in the list. Besides, I am very sure that I scored very well in Kannada Tests and I didn’t cheat! But I wasn’t chosen to join the trip…

Next,

visit to University Malaya. I wanted to join this one because of its Anatomy Museum (it’s not really a museum, according to my anatomy lecturer, it’s just a big room full of isolated organs…). It was stated clearly on the list that 50 students who got A+ in their first Anatomy Test were selected.

Truth is… I obtained the highest score in my class and still… yea you got it… I wasn’t selected to join, AGAIN! Second highest, third highest… anonymous all get to go but I’ll be left out.

Speechless… …. …. … I’m pissed…

I didn’t fight for my right in front of whoever’s responsible for the shits (pardon my language, can’t help…) because I was disappointed and I don’t want to look desperate.

You probably think that I should at least go try my luck and argue with the person who made the selection. Even if I won, what I’ll get is JUST a visit to a place which I’ll never study there or a hospital which I’ll get very sick working there for 10 years after graduation.

So what I did was, coming home this morning and only return to college on Monday evening, treating myself well with 5 days of good food and great life. I’ll watch a movie tomorrow with a group of best friends who I feel most comfortable with, and I’ll meet a friend on Sunday who I miss a lot.

Looking forward to REAL life outside the place which never fails to disappoint.

Suswagata, Jana & Dana

2010-05-01T17:58:00.003+08:00

Ok… the last blog entry I posted was… er… nvm, see for yourself. For the past few months, I didn’t bother to visit blogger at all. Reasons?? No idea, don’t ask coz you’ll never get any answer.

Thousand apologies if you have been waiting for AN update, or you wrote something in your blog and expecting my feedback but instead had your bowl of hot soup turned into ice and I wasn’t aware of it until months later… =p

Anyway, I’m back! I hit the Blogger bookmark in my web browser last night and brought myself back “home”. Haizzz… the template looked SOOOOOO BOOOOORIIIIING!! My 2nd “home” looks like a haunted shack with thick dust covering everywhere, not to mention spider webs, rats, and the stench!

So, I vaccuumed everything unpleasant and lighted up the lanterns outside. POOOFFFF!! My Japanese-style villa is visible again! Also, I hired a ninja assassin to guard and to clean my house frequently.

OK, its time to get back on track.

P/S: If you are from KTT, please discontinue reading. If you insist to carry on, read at your own risk and hold no grudges after you finish.

It’s 1st May today, in less than a month, KI (Kursus India) will walk into history. Yaaayy! But before that, there are still lots of activities which i need to get over with *ish ish ish*. Coming up is the Hindi Night, and I’ll be performing a dance with my classmates. I skipped the dance practices and so have no idea at all how the dance looks like. Hope it’s not too sakai-ish.

Me and my friends will be flying to India in July (I think). We knew our placement in India, it’s Manipal College of Dental Sciences a.k.a. MCODS (Yaaaay again! Tell you the reason later…). Problem is… there are 2 campuses for MCODS, 1 in Manipal, the other in Mangalore.

Personally, I’m hoping to go to the campus in Manipal, though most people are anticipating Mangalore. Come lets study geography for a few seconds….

Yellow: India

Red: the state of Karnataka

Most (or all? not sure) of us will be flying to Karnataka, one of the states in south India. It has the highest literacy rate among all states due to it’s abundance of universities and institutions. And yes, Manipal and Mangalore are both situated near the west coast of Karnataka, where Manipal is to the north of Mangalore.

Lets zooooom into Manipal and Mangalore to have an idea of what’s around the MCODS respectively.

MCODS, Manipal is marked by the red pin (B).

It can be seen that MCODS, Manipal is near (at the scale of the picture above) to various sports facilities. One of the is the MARENA (not found in picture) owned by the Manipal University where it houses badminton courts, tennis court, squash, football field etc etc… AND golf simulators, gym and sauna. TOTALLY speechless…

Can see the MAHE Library? It’s the LARGEST Health Sciences library in India. Don’t play play…

Due to the excellent facilities found in the city of Manipal, it’s not hard to realise why I prefer MCODS Manipal more than the other one.

EXTRA: MCODS Manipal ranked no.1 among the dental colleges in India! …

The reason why most people prefer MCODS Mangalore more is that they can get from JPA USD700 in Mangalore, but only USD500 in Manipal. No doubt, money is an issue, but I DON’T CARE! Lol…

MCODS, Mangalore is marked by the red pin (A).

Mangalore is a big city, complete with train stations, airport and various entertainment facilities that define an area as a city. It’s easy to go to other places or cities from here. If you are looking for entertainment, Mangalore is the right place for you. But look at the map carefully, where are the facilities offered by Manipal?

I want to learn from the best and make full use of the facilities provided, that’s why MCODS Manipal is the better choice for me. But the power to decide is not in my hands. My (and the others’) fate is determined by JPA and Manipal University. We still don’t know which campus we’ll be going.

Despite the simple analysis I made about both campuses and my wish, my biggest wish is that I can go to the same campus with my close friends because speculation has it that we will be split into 2 groups, each going to a different campus. That’s the last thing I want to have in my life. Nothing beats going to the same college with friends.

Enough message for today. Thanks for your patience and we’ll meet (here) again. Tata!

Note: Suswagata = welcome, Jana = people, Dana = cow

Suswagata, Jana and Dana are Kannada words. =D

I feel like a loser

2010-01-06T22:06:00.004+08:00

I'm currently working
at a hardware mart
punya accounting department
monday to saturday
8am to 6pm
earning pathetic pennies

not to mention
back pain, sore eyes, "extreme" climate
and frequent toilet visits

i want $$!!
and i don't wanna sit at home doing nothing
or go travel spending $$
that's why i work

i don't wanna feel like a loser!
(i define "loser" as being not earning enough $$)

i have to sacrifice entertainment
and sleep early
haizzz

time to leave

will have to face aunties and bitches again tomorrow
(one of them is a hybrid of both, and she's sitting in front of me)

haizz

Penang Trip

2009-12-15T16:33:00.001+08:00

Went to Penang on 7th Dec and back in KL on the 11th.

It was a post-A-level trip, not to mention it was my first time in Penang, and first time flying (by plane of course, and alone).

It was not a family trip. I went there to meet up with Choong, Eric, Mizan, Christine (all KTT-ians) and had Jimmy and Edwin (Choong’s wonderful friends) to join us.

I’m not going to blah a lot here (holidays make people lazy). So I’ll just mention the important stuff…

First, my mobile phone had a culture shock. It turned into a super troublesome gadget once I landed in Penang, just to name a few, frequent blackout and spontaneous shut down, which made communication very very inconvenient. Ish!! The worst thing is, the problems still persist even till now.

Second, we went to various tourism sites, including Kek Lok Si Temple, Gurney Plaza, Queensbay Mall (not shopping spree ah) and some other places which I don’t remember or don’t even know the name.

From left: Choong, Eric, me, Jimmy

The newly constructed pavilion housing Guan Yin statue. I think we missed the officiating ceremony by 1 day earlier or later.

Meet up with Christine on the 4th day at Queensbay Mall where this retarded photo was taken. XD Haha…

Third, Penang delicacies. I didn’t try much Penang food (I mean the ones which Penang is famous for) due to many reasons but I still managed to have a sip of nutmeg juice, some Char Kui Teow and rojak. Hope to revisit Penang again!

Last but not least, million thanks to Choong and his uncle for providing comfortable accommodation as well as hospitality, and Jimmy and Mizan for providing transport and driving us around and across the island. Oh ya, TQ Christine for meeting us even though you were suffering from food poisoning and diar… throw up.

Hope to see you guys again (KI should not be the reason) and happy holidays!!!

P/S: I need to brush up my Hokkien to prepare for future uses. Or, I can pretend to be a banana as this can solve most communication difficulties in places like Penang.

A Night to Remember

2009-11-26T14:39:00.004+08:00

Event: Graduation Dinner aka Prom Night

Date: 21 Nov 2009

Venue: Pan Pacific KLIA

Honestly, a part of me wasn’t looking forward to the event

but another half of me was dreading for it because it marks the end of my life in KTT

(at least no sight of KTT for few months before I return for a language course).

Reason is… I have to perform in a musical *ish*.

The last time I performed was on the last day of orientation,

and it seems that an opening must (god says MUST) be followed by,

unfortunately, an ending,

and the musical proved this theory.

I wanted to get over with EVERTYTHING

(the musical, prom night, and eventually KTT).

But turned out that I enjoyed myself!

I always find myself enjoying every single moment

where before everything happened,

I was hoping for it to end quick and clean.

As I promised, below are the snapshots.

As always, photo sessions began

before the start of any event,

when someone important was crapping,

sorry, I mean delivering his/her speech,

and continued all the way

until everything in schedule has ended

and we were commanded to leave.

in the bus…

mee and yasmin =D

ah cheng (neighbour), mee, choong (roommate)

where’s daniel (housemate)??

mee and weird neighbours: eric, beh

mee and beh with a vampire fang

ahem… let me introduce…

my prom date: christine

and her housemate, sylvia

also a resident of tangga 3, Hui Zhi

congrats for getting a grand prize in lucky draw!

i only got a water heater…

and her housemate, Chai Lian / CL / Jill / Power Station Cindy / Mrs. Beh

who always looks fierce

unlike the sweet felicia

黑白配

mee, Mrs. Chua (Lynn) and beh

welcome back christine

where have you been?

cat fight with lynthia? demon vs. evil??

ic...

can imagine mee dancing? no way…

and finally

全家福

congrats people! yummmmmm seeeennnnnng!!

oh ya

malaysia’s next top models

syok-syok sendiri… lol

_________________ (fill in the blank）

more pictures in facebook

even more in my laptop

if you have access to them

The most wonderful night in my entire A level

has finally come to an end

Millions thanks to all my dearest friends for being

kind, helpful, funny, weird, forgiving, sexy & …

Happy Holidays to all of you!

For those travelling

have a safe & memorable journey

& remember to buy souvenirs for me

For those working

may you earn a lot until you beg for money to stop coming

& don’t forget to chia me

For those just eating & sleeping at home

may you rot and we never meet

XOXO

wasabi

you know you love me

ya, i'm watching gossip girl

It all ended

2009-11-22T23:04:00.000+08:00

Here's a brief summary of what happened last week...

A2 exams ended on last Tuesday =D
Followed by KL trip until midnight
Had my hair trimmed and styled
Bought a shirt and a pants for prom night
Took a super luxurious dinner at Jogoya :q
Spent RM500++
-.-

Went to 1 Utama on Wednesday
Had a "romantic" diner
Happy and tired, but still happy

Thursday and Friday
Packing of belongings, cleaning of apartment
picking up shit and throwing away tonnes of refuse (and money...)
Practiced for performance- musical theatre
when those not performing were sleeping or shaking legs
Tired~~

Saturday
D-Day!
Graduation Dinner / Prom Night
I believe pictures say more than do words
So,
stay tuned!

Oh ya
I almost forget

Sunday (today)
Sayonara to 1 and a half years of
frustration and disgust
and
everyone who kept me moving and alive

另类固执

2009-11-14T00:40:00.004+08:00

把昨天都作废
现在你在我眼前
我想爱
请给我机会
如果我错了也承担
认定你就是答案
我不怕谁嘲笑我极端

相信自己的直觉
顽固的仍不喊累
爱上你 我不撤退

我说过
我不闪躲
我非要这麽做
讲不听也偏要爱 更努力爱 让你明白
没有别条路能走
你决定要不要陪我
讲不听偏爱 看我感觉爱
等你的依赖
对你偏爱
痛也很愉快

不后悔 有把握 我不闪躲
我非要这麽做
讲不听也偏要爱 更努力爱 让你明白
没有别条路能走
你决定要不要陪我
讲不听偏爱
看我感觉爱
等你的依赖
对你偏爱
痛也很愉快


张芸京
《偏爱》


献给
友达以上 恋人未满


又是一个依磨夜


你啦！干嘛急着转头？！

Bumblebee Halloween Costume

2009-11-01T23:23:00.004+08:00

I couldn't laugh man...

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...
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All the best to those taking exams...

Mass Destruction

2009-09-27T16:43:00.005+08:00

My Raya holiday is coming to an end in few hours time and I’ll return to KTT tonight. ~_~

To describe this 12-day holidays, the word “unproductive” sums it all. I didn’t do anything meaningful (study, do revision) that a student like me should. I planned to spend my time wisely by studying because A2 exam is just 1 month and few days ahead.

Nevertheless, I only managed to finish browsing through several biology and physics chapters. Compared with my initial “aspiration”, I really feel like a loser now. And, of course, guilty. But… everything is too late now.

That’s why people say don’t count your chickens before they are hatched! (is the sentence correct? nvm…)

So, what have I done in the previous days?

Well, I ended up being a couch potato, watching dramas one episode after another. I couldn’t help it. I was not in the mood of studying because holidays are a luxury for KTT-ians…

Below are the 2 dramas (1 Taiwanese, 1 Korean) I watched. They have been released for quite some time but due to certain reasons, I only got to watch them now.

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First,

Title: 痞子英雄 / Pi Zi Ying Xiong
English title: Black & White
Genre: Police, action
Episodes: 24
Broadcast network: PTS
Broadcast period: starting 2009-Apr-11 (in Taiwan I guess)

Synopsis

Pi Zi and Ying Xiong are two cops who are as different as day and night. One does nothing except for drinking coffee and living a luxurious lifestyle while waiting for information from dubious sources to crack his cases. Another believes law and justice are the pillars of society and is constantly on the street catching criminals… a little overzealously for his superior’s liking. When a case brought these two top crime solvers together, sparks fly and a little light peeks into this dark city where the nation’s President is on friendly terms with the local mafia and people are killed while drinking milkshakes…

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Second,

Title: 꽃보다 남자 / Kgotboda Namja

Also known as: Boys Before Flowers / Boys Over Flowers (lolz)

Genre: Romance, comedy

Episodes: 25

Broadcast network: KBS2

Broadcast period: 2009-Jan-05 to 2009-Mar-31 (in Korea)

Synopsis

Jan Di is an average girl whose family owns a dry cleaning store located near the luxurious and well known Shin Hwa College. Jan Di meets the four richest and most spoiled boys known as the F4. After saving a boy from jumping off the roof of Shinhwa High School, she is admitted into the school on a swimming scholarship. Jan Di tries to avoid confrontation with the F4 at all cost because she knows what happens to those that stand against them. However, when Jan Di's friend, Oh Min Ji, accidentally gets ice cream on the leader of the F4's shoes, she's forced to declare war on the leader of the F4, Goo Joon Pyo.

And of course, they fall in love with each other, leading to a tangled mass of relationship like that in the picture below (not made by me ah). Orange lines represent love relationship, red for hatred or rivalry (I can’t read Korean language), black lines linking family members.

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Both dramas took me so many days to finish watching, with each episode lasting 60 +/- 10 minutes. Phew~~

The stories are intriguing, especially Black and White. If you enjoy tears-stimulating dramas and love love stuffs, the second one is right for you. If you don’t watch dramas or find them idiotic, kindly move your mouse cursor the the top right corner of this page and click. ^.^

~*~

Time to say goodbye
Paesi che non ho mai
Veduto e vissuto con te
Adesso si li vivro.
Con te partiro
Su navi per mari
Che io lo so
No no non esistono piu
Its time to say goodbye.

Time to Say Goodbye by Andrea Bocelli

被点中！

2009-09-23T23:22:00.002+08:00

被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。
(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
(3) 写完请点5位小朋友，不可不点。
(4) 点完后请通知那5位小朋友他被点到了。
hehe… …

===========================
1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的:: 宁芮
2. 你们认识多久呢:: 9 或 10 年了吧
3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗:: 重要！（有点不好意思~）
4. 你与他(她)的关系是:: 好朋友
5. 你觉得他(她)的个性如何:: 复杂，但不讨人厌
6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是:: 帅哥？？
==============================

問 : 當你在更衣室沖水，门忽然被打开了你会？
答 : 更衣室内有冲水设施吗？
問 : 海中忽然大浪來襲后，你发现比基尼小姐上身泳裝被沖掉了你会？
答 : 看看她的表情
問 : 去海边玩会使用咩交通工具？
答 : 敞篷跑车
問 : 你突然发现沒帶泳裝、泳衣你会買吗？
答 : 谁说没带泳衣就不能在海边玩？
問 : 会的。。
答 : 会什么？
問 : 回去时，发现有其他遊客手机沒拿，你会觉得是哪牌子的？
答 : Nokia
問 : 海边对你來说是？
答 : 放松心情的好去处
問 : 看到镜子，会不由自主的向前吗？
答 : 当然不会，也没那个必要
問 : 经常用洗面乳吗？
答 : 每日几次
問 : 说到自恋会想到谁？
答 : 学院那里的朋友
問 : 有人说该減肥了你会？
答 : 出世至此没胖过！
問 : 自恋，適合你吗？
答 : 希望有自恋的机会

完毕！！

Mantoux Test

2009-09-20T12:20:00.003+08:00

I have just taken a medical screening which is requested by JPA, and I will be collecting the report on Tuesday. The tests include physical examination such as height, weight,blood pressure, pulse etc and lots more like chest X-ray and others which I don’t remember.

The most troublesome test of all is the Mantoux Test. For you guys wondering wth is a mantoux test, below are extracts from wikipedia. Hope you find it useful. =D

…

The Mantoux test (also known as the Mantoux screening test, Tuberculin Sensitivity Test, Pirquet test, or PPD test for Purified Protein Derivative) is a diagnostic tool for tuberculosis. It is one of the two major tuberculin skin tests used in the world, largely replacing multiple-puncture tests such as the Tine test.

Tuberculin is a glycerol extract of the tubercle bacillus. Purified protein derivative (PPD) tuberculin is a precipitate of non-species-specific molecules obtained from filtrates of sterilized, concentrated cultures. It was first described by Robert Koch in 1890. The test is named after Charles Mantoux, a French physician who developed on the work of Koch and Clemens von Pirquet to create his test in 1907.

Procedure

A standard dose of 5 Tuberculin units (0.1 mL) is injected intradermally (between the layers of dermis) and read 48 to 72 hours later. A person who has been exposed to the bacteria is expected to mount an immune response in the skin containing the bacterial proteins.

The injection was “disgusting-ly” painful man. The pain of the initial ant bite before extracting a test tube-full of blood is totally incomparable with this. First, I felt the needle piercing through the skin, then the needle “travels” between the skin layers. When the tuberculin is being injected, I felt as though something was hitting the bones. After that, a swelling just like that caused by a mosquito bite appeared.

The reaction is read by measuring the diameter of induration (palpable raised hardened area) across the forearm (perpendicular to the long axis) in millimeters. If there is no induration, the result should be recorded as "0 mm". Erythema (redness) should not be measured.

I’ll have the reading taken on Tuesday.

If a person has had a history of a positive tuberculin skin test, another skin test is not needed, but if negative another test may be needed.

Classification of tuberculin reaction

The results of this test must be interpreted carefully. The person's medical risk factors determine at which increment (5 mm, 10 mm, or 15 mm) of induration the result is considered positive. A positive result indicates TB exposure.

5 mm or more is positive in
- HIV-positive person
- Recent contacts of TB case
- Persons with nodular or fibrotic changes on chest x-ray consistent with old healed TB
- Patients with organ transplants and other immunosuppressed patients
10 mm or more is positive in
- Recent arrivals (less than 5 years) from high-prevalence countries
- Injection drug users
- Residents and employees of high-risk congregate settings (e.g., prisons, nursing homes, hospitals, homeless shelters, etc.)
- Mycobacteriology lab personnel
- Persons with clinical conditions that place them at high risk (e.g., diabetes, prolonged corticosteroid therapy, leukemia, end-stage renal disease, chronic malabsorption syndromes, low body weight, etc)
- Children less than 4 years of age, or children and adolescents exposed to adults in high-risk categories
15 mm or more is positive in
- Persons with no known risk factors for TB
- (Note: Targeted skin testing programs should only be conducted among high-risk groups)

A tuberculin test conversion is defined as an increase of 10 mm or more within a 2-year period, regardless of age.

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I’ll receive my test report on next Tuesday. Hopefully everything’s fine just like last year (this is the second medical check-up I did, exactly the same as that I took before entering KTT last year).

Tata. =D

Bedtime Stories

2009-09-13T00:57:00.001+08:00

Night time has always been an emo time for me, and it’s still is now. Whatever that meets my eyes or crashes my ears will always be interpreted in a very different way, emotionally to be exact, than that I feel in the hot and sunny daytime.

Of course, it is also the emo-waves that washed away the laziness-causing parasites in my body and brought me here.

PS: I personally recommend reading this article at night. =D

Wonderful things happened to me last few days, the sweetest one being me obtaining an overall band 8.0 for the IELTS I took. Whether it’s just luck that I got merciful examiners to mark my papers and evaluate my speaking ability or I underestimated my ability, all of them are no longer important. I got what I want, in fact, it’s more than what I expected.

Million thanks to whoever that helped, encouraged, discouraged or spent time joining my stress-release sessions even late at night. Now, I’m more than content and grateful for having things (e.g. success, care…) which I thought I have to live without.

And then it was Chai Lian’s 19th birthday. If anyone notices, the date was 09/09/09 (dd/mm/yy). What a nice combination! How I wish I was born in such “auspicious” day, not to mention having a sweet partner and a van-full of people to celebrate the awesome day.

There were 13 of us including the birthday girl. We enjoyed ourselves to the fullest and played the craziest way. And it’s also the day I let out another side of me (playful? stupid? Whatever…) which I rarely project elsewhere. I felt incredibly carefree that day. Realising such opportunity to hang out with the people I like is a scarcity, I know that I really have to throw away all the burdens which I carry most of the time and accept the happiness just a few feet away from me.

Again, thank you guys for inviting and allowing me to join.

For more photos, kindly visit my Facebook profile.

On Friday night, I celebrated Jun Suet’s belated birthday with Ning Jui and Li En at TGI Friday’s, IOI Mall. So many people I know turned 19 in September. Despite being tired, I still made my way to the mall to wish her Happy Birthday because it’s the last birthday she can have with me around before I fly to India next year (hopefully). With amazing people and great food, we spent quite some time there eating and chatting. It was warm, I mean emotionally.

What can possibly be better than spending moments with people who meant so much to you?

Finally, it is now 13/09/09, 1.56am. I’m the only person still awake at home, still don’t feel like sleeping although am feeling bored and emo.

I wish… that things can always be better than last minute.

Everything shall return normal

2009-08-23T16:42:00.005+08:00

I was terribly sick few weeks ago, having persistent fever for 2 weeks accompanied by flu, cough and headache (seem familiar right? Yea, all those are the symptoms of the hottest influenza A H1N1). Nevertheless, the symptoms and illnesses subsided before I was declared a carrier. Phew~~

And thanks to those who wished me a speedy recovery.

Then came the release of AS result. To my great relieve and satisfaction, I got straight A's (4 A's to be precise), and so did my buddies in college. There were 53 or 54 students who got 4 A's (I counted 1 by 1 from the name list leh) and this accounted one-third of the people who took the exam in June.

Not forgetting those who obtained staight A's in all the 3 subjects they took. Congratz!!! All the countless hard work had been paid off. What was next? Celebration time of course. Most of us escaped the college and had a good time in shopping complexes, making the college building seemed evacuated (almost).

Next up was IELTS tests which was held on last Friday and Saturday. I was feeling very stressed but can't find any way to release the tension. I tried to jog every evening until nearly run out of energy. For that fraction of time, it seemed as though the dreadful thought of IELTS tests faded. However, the feeling surfaced not long later when I was resting at night.

I know the best way of keeping myself from thinking unnecessarily is to keep myself extremely busy. But I was not in the mood of doing anything meaningful and so let the negative imagination drowned me.

Nevertheless, I finished the tests yesterday. I won't comment about the tests here 'coz what's done is done. It's time to get back on track with everything as I was left behind due to IELTS preparation. I can finally return to my normal study routine. No more jealousy towards Daniel (my housemate) 'coz he has been studying like mad when I was completely occupied with IELTS stuff as he had done the tests weeks before me. Yeah yeah!

Trial exam is just around the corner. There is so little time for so many things. I pray that I manage to finish learning and revising the exam syllabus before the exams.

Bring it on!

Back. Finally.

2009-07-18T01:24:00.001+08:00

Well, I know I’m a very lazy person. It’s been long since I last posted and I have many reasons a.k.a. excuses for abandoning my blog for such a long time, which, as usual, I’m not going to explain why. To you who are reading this and others who care about this pity blog, thousand apologies…

To make things simple and understandable, point-form does the best job.

1. Finished the AS exam in early June, now undergoing the third semester of A level programme. Tough life…

2. Moved out of my apartment (hostel) and joined Choong, Daniel and Ah Wong in the apartment one floor below the previous one. Choong said I’m the most “normal” person in the apartment. But if that’s the case, I’m actually the most “abnormal” one when this situation is viewed from another perspective.

3. New semester, new time-table, and new lecturers. Thank God~~

4. Juniors (new JPA scholars) joined the big KTT community on 13th July. Congratulations or commiseration?

5. Busy selling books to juniors while some friends busy hunting LZ & LL. I don’t care, I just want the $$$.

6. Learned a lot about my new housemates. Their behavior, routine, likes, dislikes and so much more…

7. Went to Times Square with Choong, Ah Wong and Ah Cheng. We watched the IMAX version of Transformers 2. That was the 2nd time hanging out with college friends (1st time with housemates) after a visit to Tong Zen Temple during CNY.

8. Had my first ever Physics night class at 9pm to 11pm, and after that dinner (or supper) at 11 something coz the spaghetti (my supposedly dinner) wasn’t ready before I went to class. You think water boils at room temperature is it? (only my housemates understand this)

9. Kai Hsien’s 18th birthday!! Grow up ok??

10. Farewell to Bryant =( . But congrats for securing a place to study medic in Indon. Btw you are cute, sorry Wong!

11. Engagement issue which troubled me physically and mentally.

12. Mid-semester exam at 8.30pm started on Monday and ended on Thursday (16th July).

13. Home sweet home!

Present and future:
Can’t wait to meet Su Lin who just returned from China, and Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince! OMG OMG!!!

Oyasumi nasai!

Scholarship virus

2009-05-16T17:38:00.003+08:00

An outbreak of why-didn’t-I-get-the-JPA-scholarship endemic has started few days ago. The influenza biasiswa is known to the nation as being annual, and for reasons unknown, there is still no vaccine available. As history suggests, the virus will linger in the community for a considerable amount of time, inflicting frustration and gloom before vanishing into silence.

It can be seen from the newspapers and TV news that students who did not manage to secure themselves with the scholarship were voicing their protest and dissatisfaction, despite obtaining bunch of A1’s in SPM. Some got the scholarship offer, but it is not what they wanted, e.g. different course or scholarship to study locally instead of overseas.

Such chaos happens every year, and the reasons and causes behind all these were… many. Due to my “identity”, I must not comment in depth. However, I’d still like to provide a few dosages of opinion (just what I think).

I understand that many people are very disappointed. They have worked very hard and getting the scholarship is the best present to compensate whatever they have sacrificed. However, luck was not at their side. Yes, LUCK. It is even more frustrating when a person who got 14A1’s did not get the scholarship while another person with only a dozen got it.

There are plenty of reasons causing the scholarship to slip from their fingers, one of which is the course they applied for. Here, I’ll just talk about medic. The number of applications for medic is more than threefold the number of scholarships actually available. It seems like so many people wanted to become doctor. But are they really ready for it? Are they sure that they will hold no grudges when they are forced to work 36 hours continuously, looking more like patients than the patients?

People may wonder how it feels being a scholar, especially JPA scholar. As such, they will start fantasizing about the glory and money and everything sweet. As time passes, the thought of getting the scholarship rooted deep in their mind, and they get super sad when they don’t have it. It is even more sad to see parents saying things like: “ … all the efforts are wasted…” Is studying really just about getting scholarship?

What I can say is that getting JPA scholarship is just a brief burst of fame. But after that, life goes on. With all eyes on you, you have to work thousand times harder than you were. Also, the scholarship does not guarantee you a flight ticket to study abroad. With greater challenges, harder syllabuses and more competition, can you handle the pressure?

There is also no turning back. If you regret making the decision, you will face the fate of paying back all the money the government spent on you, and it’s a really BIG sum of $$$. Unless you come from a wealthy background, then there should not be a problem. But why taking the scholarship when your parents can afford to send you study overseas?

If you did not get the scholarship, calm down and don’t feel upset. Maybe there’s a blessing in disguise?

OK, it’s time to return to the alphas and betas, sine, cos and tan. Ciao!

Trash

2009-05-12T00:35:00.003+08:00

It should be a very long chain of words here, full of rancour, but accidents happen in life, no matter how we dislike them.

I'm extremely reluctant to re-type everything that was here few minutes before, because the fact that doing this will just resurrect everything evil and this would possibly affect the quality of sleep I shall have later stops me from doing this. Just ask me if you are curious enough to want to have everything clarified. I'll answer you vocally.

Lets KISS (keep it short & simple).

Tomorrow is the first day of AS exam, beginning with Pure Maths 1. Here, I wish those who are reading this and will be taking any sort of exam ALL THE BEST and MAY WE SCORE WITH FLYING COLOURS!

I'll be returning to the place of sorry sight this afternoon instead of evening. Wish me luck.

Don't be stupid

2009-05-11T00:04:00.009+08:00

2 more days to the fate-determining AS exam

Pure Maths 1 marks the start

also bringing me closer to the end of anxieties, uncertainties

everything unnecessary

fear is crawling on my body

perhaps...

a sinful bite on

the heavenly

creamy ~ rich Belgian coverture chocolate ~ white chocolate filling

aka chocolate indulgence

could shake it off

don't forget

the softness # the taste # the residual fragrance

it's time to...

SLEEP and STOP DREAMING

LWL!

All about DREAMS

2009-05-01T17:02:00.005+08:00

I had my IELTS presentation yesterday. Luckily there was enough time for my group to present it, so we don’t have to wait until next week. Phew~~

The topic: DREAMS

It was a Power Point presentation and I was the last one in the group to present. For that few minutes, I took the role of “dream interpreter”. As the name suggests, yes, I interpret dreams.

Dream Interpretation: the process of assigning meaning to dreams.

Some of the info I presented were…

CHASE DREAMS

If in the dream, you are
pursued by an attacker, and you re running away from he/she/it
the dream suggests that you are avoiding a problem in your waking life

you are the chaser
you have the drive and ambition to go after something you want / you are falling behind

FLYING DREAMS

flying with ease and enjoying the scene and landscape below
you are on top of a situation

having difficulties staying in flight
lack of power in controlling your own circumstances

feeling fear when you are flying / flying too high
you are afraid of challenges and of success

FALLING DREAMS

The dreams indicate that…

you are feeling overwhelmed and out of control in some situation in your waking life

you fear of failing in your job/school, loss of status, or failure in love

TEETH DREAMS

If in your dream, you have your teeth crumble in your hands, fall out one by one with just a light tap, grow crooked or rot, the dream

reflects your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you

you fear of being embarrassed

you are experiencing a sense of powerlessness

TEST DREAMS

If you dream that you are taking a test/exam, the dream

indicates that you are being put to a test or being scrutinized in some way

suggests that you may feel unprepared for a challenge

is an indication that you are being judged

Lastly,

NAKED DREAMS

o.0

In the dream, if you are

naked in public
you may be hiding something and are afraid that others can see right through you

naked at work / in a classroom
you are unprepared for a project at work or school

naked in your dream, but no one else seems to notice
the dream implies that your fears are unfounded

proud of your nakedness and show no shame or embarrassment
the dream symbolizes your unrestricted freedom / you are drawing the wrong kind of attention

Interesting???

In general, I gave myself a score of 8 out of 10 for my presentation. I used to be very nervous when I was delivering a presentation and I tend to have frequent “technical problems”. But this time, I managed to suppress my anxiety to a not-so-harmful level and this allowed me to sail smoothly till the end.

Tips for those who want to give a good (at least not very bad ) presentation:
Say it LOUD and SLOW
Search for people where you can have EYE CONTACT with

Hope they help!

My wishlist

2009-04-19T13:00:00.021+08:00

Before I leave my blog news-less for perhaps another few weeks (which I’ll try to avoid), I’d like to add something here while I still have the urge and time to do so. This time, please allow me to venture (I mean, crap) into Fashion & Entertainment.

I went to Times Square on Friday and stepped my feet for the very first time in SUB (a clothing store). I’ve visited Padini Concept Store for plenty of times but the reason why I never visit, or at best to patronize SUB is that most of the apparels are in white or black. This gives me the impression that the clothes are costly and they are far beyond my reach.

Nevertheless, I’ve successfully made a few rounds inside the store. What I have to say is, the shirts I saw in the shop are those I’ve been seeking! From casual wear to formal shirts, I couldn’t resist wishing to own a few pieces of them. I simply grabbed a formal top and cast a glance at the price tag. It’s priced at RM119.90. Well, I was surprised as it’s not as expensive as I imagined and still, er… affordable (courtesy of JPA’s $$$).

The visit was a brief one because I dislike being tailed by promoters. I love the clothes being worn by the mannequins and the way the clothes were mix-&-matched is creative yet acceptable. As I didn’t really explore the store thoroughly, I viewed sub.com.my to find out more about the store and the products it offers.

Below are snapshots of men’s wear, readily combined and matched with accessories.

I picked 3 of my favourite and the comments are:

undergarment Nice little black column which imitates a tie

sunglass Something I won’t try putting on

sling bag (or whatever it is called) Multi-purpose, but I won’t consider bringing it to class

shoes My favourite of all! Must get myself a pair. Anyone don’t mind buying for me??

undergarment Luv it!!

cap I’m a bit of anti-cap. Not handicapped ok? Touchwood!!!

vest Nice, but I have confidence issue for putting it on

bag Ha! This is the 1 I’ve been looking for. I’ll definitely won’t hesitate buying. Suitable for most occasions

jacket (or whatever it is called) +2_undergarments +scarf Very trendy and catchy combination. But is Malaysia so cold for that? Nor is it suitable for most areas in India (think too far…)

shoes Another items I’ll consider buying. Could they make me taller?

For the ladies, well, check out the website or the store for more details, hehehe.

Conclusion: I’ll definitely pay another visit to the store. What’s more? SUB is a Malaysian-based international fashion group. Who says Buatan Malaysia= no good? Time to feel good for being patriotic!

Here comes the entertainment part.

For all those HARRY POTTER fans out there, the 6th movie of the series is finally here! It is estimated that the movie will release in Malaysia in 16 July, and if that’s the case, we, Malaysians, got to watch the movie earlier than most of the world!! Such a long wait it has been, but I don’t mind waiting for a few more months.

Will there be a 3D version of the movie at Times Square’s IMAX theatre?????

So that’s it, my simple yet hard-to-get wishes for the month. Is there anyone who’s generous & kind & wealthy who has no idea of how to spend the time & money? Contact me!

Or if you have the $$$ but dunno how to spend it on a person wisely, call me!

日行一善，功德无量噢！

Short Story

2009-04-18T15:59:00.001+08:00

After abandoning my pity blog for more than a month (wow!), finally, and fortunately, I’ve decided to re-oxygenate it’s blood before it dies quietly.

I’m using English now because typing Chinese words is an extremely tedious task, for me la. Initially I decided to use mandarin in all my post because I wanted to limit the readers of my blog to certain group of people, hehehe, as some of the contents of the blogs are not meant for EVERY1. No offence, lol. HOWEVER, i succumb to my native laziness.

OK, back to business. Yesterday went to KL for a half day trip with Ning Jui & Jun Suet. Ning Jui’s mom took us to Jalan Petaling in the morning and dropped us at a “branded” (used to be) restaurant where we had our not-so-tasty dim sum where 90% of the people in the restaurants consisted of senior citizens.

After filling our stomach with meats & cholesterol, we walked around at Jalan Petaling. It was 9am something and most of the shops were still closed. I found that, surprisingly, there are many “hotels”, precisely motels which i think provide not just accommodation… OK enough of this.

To my great disappointment, one of the sport shoes that I was wearing had its bottom section (the rubber which cushions the foot) torn which made walking so “voluntary”, with conscious control over each and every pace. I was desperately looking for a shop selling shoes but most of the shops were still sleeping! The only hope I had was Times Square but it was thousand miles ahead.

Nevertheless, we managed to reach Times Square after walking for such long journey under the hot and mean sun. The first stop we visited was the washroom, of course, separately.

The next thing to do was to get myself a new pair of shoes. Lets trim the details down and go straight to>>> Ya, I bought a pair of Neckermann shoes and I’m jealous, till now, that Ning Jui bought a pair of BUM Equipment shoes at only RM19.90!! It’s genuine… but my feet are unexpectedly larger than the maximum size of the shoes available… Never mind, I still like mine.

And then… (further trimming and making life easy)… We walked for about 7 hours inside Times Square, appreciating everything beautiful but expensive along the way. I spent the least yesterday, while the other two got themselves the so-called “worth it” merchandises.

At 5pm something, we walked from Times Square to Tong Shin Hospital where Ning Jui’s mom works. The journey was even more torturing than that in the morning, with more vehicles at greater speed, more noise, hotter sun and more sweat. Finally, thousand thanks to Ning Jui’s mom, we returned to Puchong and home sweet home.

A fun and memorable experience ended, and with high hopes, there shall be more in the future.

是第19，也是第1次

2009-03-05T23:26:00.001+08:00

昨晚上了大约9小时的课。由于KTT又治水（听说是拖欠水费），今天的课都被取消，而明天的课早已移前，所以照理来说我昨天就该回家了。但是我仍然留在学院，听朋友说今天会给我惊喜。

上完了昨天的课时已是傍晚了。我在学院对面的草场旁跑几圈后就到cafe跟朋友聊天。从谈话中，我“挖”到了朋友们将在今天为我庆祝生日的料。为了不辜负他们的一番心意，我决定留在学院。聊了好久好久后我回到宿舍洗澡，洗完后已是晚上8时许。

平时在这个时候的我一定是在温习功课。但由于生日即将来临，所以我决定暂时放纵自己不读书（其实也只是在找藉口偷懒）。那晚，我收到很多的简讯祝我生日快乐，也有收到几分礼物，真的是太开心了！后来有几个朋友陪我倒数看戏（不是去戏院，而是用我的手提电脑看），而其中一部是Slumdog Millionaire。

值得一提的是Slumdog Millionaire这部戏。起初我对它完全不感兴趣，但后来知道这部电影在第81届奥斯卡颁奖典礼获奖无数，当中包括最佳电影奖项，之后才对它产生兴趣。除此之外，我也想看看究竟印度的贫民窟长什么样子。我不管室友的劝阻，硬着头皮看该电影。

果然如他所说（：“不看会比较好。”），看了该片后那贫民窟的一切从此牢牢地烙印在我脑海里，远比我想象的还恐怖、夸张。而且，戏里的贫民窟其实比其他“同类”的地区好很多了，试想想真正的贫民窟的情况到底是怎么样？无论如何，这部戏的题材和构思还不赖，推荐大家去看。看完后已是凌晨2点多，睡觉时间到。

原本调好闹钟早上9点响，但我7点多就起床了。跟往常一样边吃早餐边听收音机的广播，过后再梳洗一番。然后？很无聊，也没心情温习功课，但仍逼自己“吞下”几页的书中黄金。

好不容易终于等到中午12点。后来我被阿骅“骗”上学院的巴士。我早已猜到大家的计划，但还是装傻配合。一上巴士，朋友们就高唱“生日快乐”，为我的生日惊喜划下起点。不知过了多久，大伙儿被载到Nilai的一家Pizza Hut外。我们用了很久的时间来决定要吃什么，后来就边吃边玩边拍照。在这里先让大家看看几张照片，迟些我会将所有的照片上载到Facebook去。

离开前，店员把朋友们准备的Secret Recipe蛋糕送到我面前。接下来当然就是唱生日歌和许愿咯。有趣的是，当我说：“I wish that all of us can fly to India.”后，大伙儿面露不悦，不断ahem ahem。原来，我说错话了，sorry sorry！Christine纠正我，她教我说：“May all of us be sent to UK… Australia also not bad…。”哈哈，看来大家还是不肯接受将去印度深造的事实。噢，对了，那蛋糕的味道蛮好的，口味是Yasmin喜欢的Chocolate Indulgence。这是我第一次品尝S.R. 的蛋糕。有钱的话再光顾吧。

回到学院，他们叫我讲讲感言。我所说的内容包括这是十多年来第一次有人帮我庆祝生日，第一次切生日蛋糕，第一次收到生日礼物，还有这是我在KTT有史以来最快乐的一天等等。我非常感激他们为我所做的一切，他们的心意我都收到了（虽然嘴巴没透露太多）。再一次向他们说声：“谢谢！！”

回到宿舍，我处理一些事物后就回家。回到家里，我收到了宁芮的礼物。谢谢!

以上就是我度过第19个生日的方式。衷心感谢祝福我的每一个人，愿你们心想事成，随心所欲。最后，我希望自己能更勇敢、坚强地面对排山倒海的挑战，并且绝口不言放弃。

好久不见

2009-02-28T10:49:00.001+08:00

前天我的前室友学长Jesse回KTT领取他的A Level Statement of Results，然后来到宿舍跟我小聚半小时。看到他四科A的成绩，心里充斥着羡慕。

短短半小时，我跟他聊了很多，大部分都关于学业。他下个星期五将会飞到印度展开他的学医之路了。他将在印度修读两念半的医科，过后再回到马六甲的分院上完另两年半的课。至于将于七、八月飞往印度修读牙科的学长们也将会在下个月回到学院上语言课（三种印度方言，包括Tamil和Kannada），为期三个月。

我很羡慕他即将成为医科生。是我太贪心？还是太不切实际？我无法否认，至今我仍希望能够更换科系。我甚至还说服不了自己牙医不是“二等”医生。我很了解医生的所承担的压力和工作时间比牙医多，但我之所以那么执着，是因为我想得到当医生的那种满足感。

医生所拥有的知识比牙医广泛、全面。他了解身体各部位的疾病与医治方法。牙医也一样，只不过他所了解的不比医生透彻，大部份的知识也只局限于口腔。我有把这些想法告诉Jesse。他安慰我，说：“如果你当上了医生，迟些日子你一定会去修读专科，如心脏专科。若你是牙医，你就像比别人早得到一个专科学位… …。”但如果我反问学长：“若让你选，你会选择当个医生还是牙医？”相信学长会感到很矛盾，不过，我当然没对这个让我十分敬佩的人下重手。

我明白学长的用心良苦，但也许我的想法太单纯，宁愿当一位被压力牵绊一生的医生也不要当个“比较”轻松的牙医好好享受生活。很希望自己真的是想法单纯，而不是真心想要成为一个医生，拥有那个照顾好身边的人的能力。

另外，学长告诉我JPA也许会从今年开始送学生到印度的北部修读牙科(印度北部某些地区有冬季耶，那里也是Bollywood Stars出没的地方)。若事实真的如此，这将会是史无前例的创举，还真希望能当其中一只开荒牛。他也说有些医学系学长成功向JPA申请转换就读的地方，当然不是从印度转到爱尔兰，而是从full-time India转到part-time（即twinning）或相反。但牙科生的申请却到目前为止没有成功的例子（更何况是另JPA付更大笔钱的转换科系）。无论希望多么渺茫，他还是鼓励我抱着希望。若真的不行，就把全副精神发在牙科吧。

很快的，学长就要回家了。临走前我俩承诺会保持联络。看到他离开了，我心里还真依依不舍。这种感觉比当初他毕业离开KTT时更强烈和深刻，可能是感觉到他真的即将离开大马了吧。

随着他的离开，我也回到了自己的世界，一个人的世界。当晚八时许，我考了道德考试。

在这里给学长送上深深的祝福，愿前途似锦，身体健康。

到底怎么了？

2009-02-07T12:38:00.002+08:00

终于收集了新年假期前的考试的分数了。总的来说，有好有坏。

昨天才得到数学的分数，坦白说还蛮伤心的，成绩比预测的差好几倍，但这还不是重点。
重点是，从开学至今，我已经历了3次考试，每次都一定会考生物,化学，物理及数学。在每一次考试，我最多只拿得2个A，这真的让我很沮丧。

昨天上了数学课后，我回到宿舍收拾东西准备回家。当时的心情蛮负面的，一边打包东西一边聆听手机播放的哀伤音乐，一心只想回家，离开这个令我非常不适的地方。

我知道大家会叫我看开点，别把成绩看得太重。其实我明白这一点，我只不过对自己无法有突破性的表现感到失望。已经考了那么多次试，但成绩都保持为AABB，一直摆脱不了这个厄运，一直眼看别人好，自己却连羡慕都不敢。我自认已经很努力了，甚至比临考SPM时更用功，但为什么一直无法把AABB变成AAAA呢？（A是90%以上）我真的面对瓶颈了吗？

我虽然从不放弃，但事实已血淋淋地摆在眼前，不管我再怎么拼都始终抹不掉内心深处那源自没信心的自卑感。我说服不了自己，催眠不了自己，那些曾经令我感到自豪的回忆无法扶我一把。

也许有人会问：“成绩对你来说那么重要吗？”没错，我不否认，因为我不想被别人和自己视为弱势的一分子，我还想为自己保留一些尊严。

我会继续努力，绝口不言放弃。我仍然会以笑容欺骗大家，但希望有一天，我能够真正地由心笑出来。

独白

2009-01-22T23:45:00.003+08:00

刚考完试，终于可以无忧无虑地坐在电视机前“煲”电视了，心里觉得还蛮感动的，哈哈。为什么会感动？说来话长。嗯，有很多原因啦，当中包括宿舍没电视看、之前因为考试要到了而不能够“放心”地看和 so on so forth...

考完试，当然就放假咯。接下来焦点就得放在新年啦。说到这个新年，不知该期待还是害怕。

期待，是因为可以放假。对于大部分日子必须在宿舍度过的人来说，假期是个可以回家过个象样的日子的大好机会。而且，由于是新年，大家的口袋、钱包、都有得进帐，袋袋平安＄＄＄＄

害怕，是因为新年的来临也正代表开学的日子慢慢逼近，各种烦恼压力都将来贺岁，让人不禁想延长假期，但又因为明知道这是不可能的事而感到纳闷。悲啊。。。

好了，点到就止。伤心的事不要再说了，今天就破例讲些“中性”的事。

新年新希望。

自己对“新年愿望”这四个字有些见解。也许自己的想法比较实际，与其谈论“愿望”这种听起来遥不可及的幻想以及为了避免希望变成绝望，还是讲些比较实际的东西。

所以今年，我要，不是希望，是要

万事如意！！

是的，没错，我要的就是

我要怎样就怎样！！！

Ahem... 也许大家会 swt 到脱水，读了那么多个字才发现自己把时间浪费在一整篇废话上。但是我答应，这绝对是空前绝后，下不为例（不过也得看我是否记得自己说过的话，做过的承诺）。

好了好了，手累了。在新年来临前提醒大家一定要

向钱看!!

谈未来

2009-01-16T12:07:00.003+08:00

已经好久没上载文章了，这次一定会讲好多好多。下个星期就要考试了，大家都在埋头苦读，自己却在网上游荡，感觉还蛮奇怪的。

昨天在学院参加了一个活动。三位前KTT学生，由就是我的学长学姐们应该是趁大学放假而回大马一趟。他们现在在印度修读医科，这次回来时要跟我们分享他们在印度的生活。

他们讲了很多，我大概只记得以下这一些。

先说食宿方面好了。

他们说那里的水很脏，有锈铁的味道。起初他们都喝矿泉水，而且腹泻是很正常的。求神拜佛，最好自己的宿舍有过滤器。食物，当然是印度餐咯。。。至于电供呢，宿舍那里有generator，不过经常停电，比如说走几步路去拿水喝，就会突然停电，所以必须习惯这一切。

他们说刚到印度的前几个月大家都会手头紧。虽然JPA付每人每月USD$700，但由于要先缴几个月的房租和买这个拿个，所以刚开始时必须缩紧腰带过日子。

JPA多数把学生派到MAHE集团旗下的几所大学就读。每所大学所教的课程都一样，只不过在环境上就有些差别。打个比方，Kasturba Medical College。这所学院应该非常历史悠久吧，所以建筑物很简陋，可以说是很旧，座椅都是木制的，其他的器具都很旧。但是这间学院靠近很多商场，所以购物、娱乐不成问题。

另一间大学 Manipal University 则和 Kasturba 正好相反。它是一所新大学，什么东西都是新的、美的。但美中不足的是它的地理位置是处于较偏僻的地方，远离市区，就像KTT，所以要去到市区需要一段路程和时间，会有些不方便。

自己会被送去哪里，没人知道。

好了，现在就讲讲上课那方面吧。

听学长们说，他们的时间表都蛮packed的。早上八点上课，中午上解剖课，下午做实验直到傍晚才结束。由第二年开始，他们每天中午还必须到医院去学习，包括星期六。他们也强调，这是我们一生中最辛苦的5年。我再说一次，是最辛苦的5年。。。

谈到医科，当然少不了死尸咯。上解剖课时，大约20个学生共用一具尸体，整堂课有大约有200个学生。然后学生必须动刀切这里、割那里。平时空闲的时候，他们会到停尸间练习，但都是趁其他人在用餐时才去。如果是高峰期去的话，根本没机会下手。练习完毕，他们才带着满手，甚至满身的尸臭味去吃东西。也许你们不知道尸臭味到底是怎样的，但我很清楚，因为我曾嗅过死老鼠那种让人毕生难忘的味道，现在更何况是一整具也许是一米七的干尸。噢对了，我也看了很多尸体的照片。

然后医科生每人都会拥有一副人骨模型以帮助学习。跟其他国家的大学不同，他们都是用真人的骨头，甚至是“新鲜”的。除了要面对干尸，他们也有类似assignment的东西，也就是一旦接到消息有新尸报道，他们就必须赶去先睹为快。那些尸体都是刚被发现的，有的被淹死、被勒死、被奸杀等等。那一年内，他们必须看20具尸体才算完成任物。

把4年多的课程上完后，他们还需在那里的医院服务1年半，这样才可以拿到学士文凭，正式毕业。以上所讲的都是医科生的故事，但我会是牙科生，不知道情况又会是怎样。不过我听说，在第1年里，牙科生和医科生都读同样的东西。

在这里只是列举一些大家比较感兴趣的例子，除了以上的故事，我还听到了更多，例如种族歧视、课业压力等等等等，不过这些就留给自己好了。

前天我参加学院的基督教社团的活动，聆听一位在英国 Leeds 服务的本地华裔肾脏专科医生 Dr. Ken Woo 讲解他在国外的生活。他说：“No matter you are going to be a doctor or a dentist, it’s not about how genious you are, but how hard you work… You will have not enough time to sleep, not enough time to eat, not enough time to play, but have to study MORE THAN EOUGH…”

结论是，前方的路不好走。离乡背井在陌生的国度历尽长达5年的各种历练、磨难和折磨下，相信自己以后绝对会成为非常坚强，不畏惧任何挑战的人吧。不过前提是，必须先完成目前的任物，即在A Level考到好成绩，这样到了印度才不会被瞧不起（那里的印度医科生在17岁就开始他们的第一年了，而我们当时却已是20岁！）。

同学会

2008-12-28T11:45:00.002+08:00

昨天在公主城的Shabu Shabu日式火锅店参加了小学同学会。与以往不同的，就是今年集合了6H和6K两班的同学一起聚餐。

详细的东西就免了吧。只想说说感想。

终于可以跟好久不见的朋友相聚，当然非常开心，都不知多久没那么开心了。跟大伙儿边吃边聊边吹水，不知不觉时间也慢慢过了。跟大家聊天，不知不觉就找回了以前上学的那种感觉，单纯、快乐，真想回到小学那段时光。虽然那是课业繁重，但每天都过得很充实，很多时候都在苦中作乐。无论如何，人还是得向前看。

从谈话中，大家也难免讲到学业，越听越羡慕。我这才了解，KTT的讲师是烂到什么不堪的地步。咳，不说了，还是靠自己。

很懒惰写下去，下回再见！

愿大家笑口常开、学业猛进。

哀

2008-12-17T20:04:00.001+08:00

差劲

只想说自己是个失败透顶的人

十分红演唱会

2008-12-14T11:59:00.003+08:00

昨天观赏了由 ntv7 主办的十分红演唱会，地点于Amcorp Mall的东区草场。

我妹她几星期前拨电参加八度空间的某个电视节目的有奖游戏，成功赢取4张 Extreme Hot Zone A 的入场券，刚好够我们一家四口去观赏演唱会。

我们于傍晚7点多到达，汽车泊于一间名为 White House 的豪宅外。当时已有不少人到达现场，大部分正参加游戏。绵绵细雨不久后停止了，但是由于演唱会是户外的，草场湿完了，也满是烂泥巴，走起路来非常不方便，所有人都“牺牲”了鞋子，甚至裤子。幸好我穿球鞋和长裤，双脚才不至于沾上烂泥。

好不容易到了我们那一区（由前至后的中间），换了几个风水位，最后选择该区的中间，靠着右边的栏杆，栏杆一旁就是控制台，有摄影机、音响控制等等。

我们就在那里等到八点半，舞台上的荧幕不断地重复播放演唱会的广告、ntv 7 的新连续剧预告，偶尔也播放 MV，如林俊杰与阿Sa的“小酒窝”和神目与瞳的“为你而活”。一看到偶像的片段被播出，台下的粉丝们都喊破喉咙，当中呼声最高的是神目与瞳的支持者。还没出场就掀起轰动，他们俩的魅力真是难以形容。

终于到了8.30pm，演唱会正式开始，而 ntv 7 也有现场直播。首先出场的是周华健，唱了好像四、五首歌，也有轮流跟李志清和范玮琪合唱。其他出场的歌手有李志清、范玮琪、黄启明、温力铭，神目与瞳、Manhand、陈诗莉、萧敬腾、泳儿、林俊杰、卫兰和最后哈林，出场序大概是这样。

在这里让大家看看几张照片，但由于手机像素只有5Mp和舞台的灯光太强，所以zoom了以后照片的素质差强人意。猜猜看照片中的艺人是谁吧。

由于是现场，好听的歌都让人听出耳油。值得一提的是较早前呼声最高的神目与瞳。当他们出场时，现场观众简直是疯了，说得夸张点，就是进入歇斯底里的状态！神目与瞳第一次来马，也证明了冠、亚军得主的功力不是开玩笑的。他们的唱功非常好、非常稳，第一首“为你而活”就让大家血脉奔腾。我之前对这首歌没什么好感，但听了现场后也不得不改观了，听现场和听在录音室录制的版本的差别太大，就连我妈也说这首歌很好听。后来神目与瞳也另外唱了两首歌。

这里让大家看看神目与瞳的现场版“为你而活”，但出了一些状况，画面向左倒，忍一忍吧。

除此之外，我也发现范玮琪的身材高挑，与周华健同高。当然她也长得很漂亮，很有气质。然后我也看到林俊杰的舞蹈，很好看，而他的唱功，不用讲都知道非常好。当萧敬腾和陈诗莉演唱“一眼瞬间”时，我的头皮都发麻了。萧敬腾的唱功也不是闹着玩的。后来卫兰唱了一首歌后说她感谢上天因为没下雨。此话一出，天不作美。轮到哈林时就开始下雨了... 很多人都离场，也有些仍留在现场撑扇继续观赏。

我们这一家在听完哈林的第一首歌后就离开，当时他正唱着“串烧”名曲，当然包括那首“情非得以”。后来我们回到“白宫”外，上车离开。那时演唱会现场正燃放烟花，时间为11时许。

这是我第一次观赏现场演唱会，也很荣幸能够观赏神目与瞳在大马的第一次公开演出，嘿嘿...

说道这里，明天我就开学了。失败...

深思？省思？想太多？

2008-12-09T13:34:00.000+08:00

好不容易才等到的假期，现已进入倒数阶段。羡慕别人拥有一个月或更久的长假，感叹自己却成了在十二月份仍需上课的一份子。再多的无奈、叹息，仔细想想，应该是自找的。

因为假期，闲下来的时间多了，就想了许多；看的东西多了，了解的，更多。

半年前，每时每刻困扰着我的就是Petronas和JPA这两份奖学金〔到现在，我还是对“奖学金”这三个字包持着否定的想法。〕。两份奖学金有着许多共同点，差别只是提供的机构、科系及“报恩”的对象。

当初会那么烦，是因为不知该选哪一份。一个可让我成为土木工程师，另一个可让我成为牙医。两份奖学金各有利弊，需考量很多层面及因素。当时我心中的困扰没人能了解。总之就是烦。也许有人会怒骂我，拥有别人梦寐以求的东西却不懂得惜福、感恩。但我只能说，塞翁失马，焉知非福？还是那一句，随你怎么说、怎么骂，我都不在乎。

其实心中早已有了答案，只不过自己不肯诚实面对。到最后我选择了JPA那份，现在上着A Level的课程。对于自己的决定，我感到庆幸。我一向来不喜欢物理这一科，对数学也没好感。虽然现在还需上这两科的课，但至少我以后的工作不会以物理和数学为重。幸好没选择Petronas奖学金，不然我现在一定后悔莫极。

好了，我自以为是地“庆幸”了一段日子。后来我发现，当我面对那些将来可修读医科的朋友和学长，心里却不是滋味。再过了一阵子，我了解到其实自己正羡慕着别人。我很清楚牙医的工作比其他医生来得轻松，但我还是希望当个medical doctor ，而不是dentist。是贪心？还是想对自己诚实？我已经不想去研究了。

当初发生了许多事情导致我得不到修读医科的奖学金。是有点沮丧，但我仍安慰〔或欺骗？〕自己：一定隐藏着玄机，上天自有安排。也许医科真的不适合我，或我不适合医科。
在报章上看到任何有关出国读医的广告，心里只觉得望尘莫及，否认自己会有这么一天的可能性。但回头一想，命运掌握在自己手中。肯尝试就有机会，放弃就没希望。但又想想，我哪来的＄＄？

现在在学院的日子也越来越难过。学业上的问题不难解决，人际关系的烦恼却非常棘手。
我害怕开学那一天，我想逃避。想到自己每晚独自走向餐馆打包晚餐，眼看别人高高兴兴十几个人在那里满汉全席，有说有笑，自己却装作没事回到宿舍，在桌灯下孤零零解决那吃不饱的晚餐。吃完了，就找家务事做。做完了，就回到座位，翻开书本，在桌灯和虫鸣声陪伴下温习功课。偶尔会听见左邻右舍传来的嬉闹声、欢笑声，而自己却好像活在自己的坟场内，没人靠近、无人理会。到了晚上十一点，收拾东西，刷牙洗脸后就上床睡觉。听见的有房间那老爷风扇的嘈杂生，房外的虫鸣声，及此起彼落的笑声。

我经常失眠，所以每天都把自己弄得很累，期望能一觉到天亮，然后隔天又重复着无聊。
是自己的人际关系有问题吗？不懂得与人打交道？不想为了迎合别人而委屈自己？不够独立，渴望别人的陪伴？想太多？不知道...

我害怕开学，就是这个原因。我不想再次隔岸观赏别人的和乐融融，这样一点也不好受。也许就是这个原因，我才会渴望周末的到来〔以前却不喜欢周末〕。上完了那个星期的课，我就迫不及待地收拾东西回家去，找回存在感。

18岁并不如想像般enjoyable。这一年我上了很多社会课。面对很多，学会更多。很多时候虽然深感无助，但我绝对不会有倒下来的一天。

这也不禁让我开始考虑亲友的建议：放弃JPA奖学金。大家都是为了我好，而我还需时间考虑。若我真的这么做，那我这大半年来在学院不是浪费了很多时间，白白承受原本不需面对的东西？放弃奖学金的话，我必须赔偿一大笔＄，而且日后必须自己承担天价学费。当初没接受这奖学金不是更好吗？但是我又听过“长痛不如短痛”这一句话喔...

我真是个三八。

我回来了

2008-11-30T00:20:00.009+08:00

终于...

好不容易...

考完试了...

也开始放假了...

虽然只有两星期

考试前和考试时那段辛路历程我就省掉了，讲来讲去还是逃不了多累、多苦

放下了部落格那么久，也是时候写些什么了

星期四考了最后一张试卷－化学，然后就于下午二时许回到家。

真的很累

精神受到严重的耗损。不过，也终于等到这假期了。

星期五跟立恩逛IOI。

原以为自己的元气还未恢复，但还是逛了好几个小时。

我们看了僵尸片－ Twilight。

戏名很好听，故事也蛮不错。

故事大纲就省下吧，好奇的话就自己去戏院看。

我能讲的就是戏里恐怖画面少之又少，但浪漫镜头却多的很。与其说是恐怖片，我倒觉得爱情的元素占了绝大部分的剧情。

那天是电影上映的第二天，但戏票却才RM6，非常值得。但其他日子的票价我就不清楚了。

在这里推荐大家去看，前提是你不排斥爱情片。

话说回来，我总觉得男主角很面善（不是我遇过他啦）。

后来才想起他曾参演 Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire 的 Cedric Diggory 一角，可惜该角色在那部电影中卦了。

好了，是时候好好计划我的假期生活了。头痛...

冲上云霄

2008-10-30T21:07:00.019+08:00

星期二那天和学院内的好友：骏骅、彩莲、惠晶展开了云顶三天两夜游。

为什么这么得空可以去玩？不必上课吗？其实事情的来龙去脉是这样的--话说星期一是屠妖节，学院放假一天，星期二开课。大多数的班级都延后某一些课以延长假期，而我的班则是把星期二至五的课取消/延后至下星期，也就是说我可享有一个星期的假期。虽然如此，我星期二和三仍有物理课，因物理讲师不肯配合大家把课延后，所以她照样会教书，要不要上课随我们的便（她说：“I masih akan adakan kelas, tapi korang nak hadir ke tak, up to u la. I tak kisah, I akan tanda 0 dalam kedatangan kamu, lepas tu u bayar 10 ringgit kat admin office sajelah”）。

仍有些人照上她的课，而我呢，很明显的根本不把她的课放在眼里（有没有上课都一样，竟然如此我干嘛把宝贵的假期浪费在她身上？！）。

第一天
回到云顶之旅。我和他们三个约好于10至11点之间在KL Sentral会合。事实上我于10.45am抵达KL Sentral，由于巴士内实在太多人，而我又坐在巴士最后面，当我好不容易挤到巴士门口时巴士又开跑了。我尝试按了几个车铃，但没有一个发出声音。司机驾着巴士离KL Sentral越来越远，巴士内的人边看着我边不断窃笑，完全没有人帮我叫停司机。就这样巴士越驶越远，直到highway去。后来有人按响了车铃，车铃响了好久后巴士才停下来，而我也马上下巴士。

一眼望去，我只能用“陌生”两字来形容。这是我有生以来第一次独自来到吉隆坡，而且还被抛在不知名的地方。在烈日底下沿着火车轨道走回去，再背着个沉重的背包，汗流浃背是一定的，但没办法咯，路还是要走下去。

走了好久好久，手机也因为自己的不小心而重摔在马路旁，并在粗糙的地上滑了半米左右。手机有没有坏我不确定，但手机的背面被割花了却是个事实。我是非常心痛，但我也没时间愣在路旁伤心。把手机放进口袋后，我继续我的路程，而身体也越来越灼热。后来看见一处有许多巴士从那里拐弯出来，我马上向那里飞奔。果然不出我所料，那里就是KL Sentral。

后来到了那里，我跟着人潮走上手扶梯到第二层。这是我第一次进入 KL Sentral,而且也是一个人来到这里，所以对一切都感到非常陌生。周围有许多店铺和档子，人潮也算蛮多。那时的我一心只想找厕所，没什么闲情慢慢走。走着走着，前方有人叫住了我。由于那时我的心和脑子都很乱，所以我只认得那把声音，却认不出那个人（他戴着帽子，身穿粉红色T恤，从远处望去，就如惠晶所说，还蛮“美”的）。他就是骏骅。看到他后，我才放下心来，紧绷的情绪也舒缓了很多。

上了厕所洗把脸，再把头发整理好，我与阿骅走到售票处去。后来我们碰上惠晶和彩莲，大家总算都到齐了。见到熟悉的好友们，之前的不愉快都烟消魂散了。买了巴士和缆车票，我们就到KFC享用午餐。离开前我们还向隔壁桌的老外道别，彩莲更热情地欢迎他 Welcome to Malaysia，真是炸到。

上了巴士，我们就从 KL Sentral 往云顶高原半山的缆车站去，接着就搭缆车上云顶高原。路途和“空”途中大家有说有笑，也拍了一些照片。到了云顶，我们走到 First World Hotel 大厅办 check in 手续。那时是下午3时许，非常多人。惠晶和骏骅办好手续后，我们就前往自己的房间。惠晶和彩莲一间，我和骏骅另一间。

休息一段时间后，是时候展开我们的云顶之旅了。第一天的活动就是玩尽室内的游乐设施。差不多所有的游戏我们都玩遍了，这包括过山车、碰碰车、看4D电影还有很多我不知叫什么名的游戏。说来惭愧，有许多游戏，如碰碰车，是我的第一次尝试，之前从没玩过。

玩累了，我们回到酒店房间去休息，并随便解决自己的晚餐（面包、零食、杯面），好好充电。
晚上八时许，我们再到 First World Plaza 去走走。后来我们看了 High School Musical 3: Senior Year。这部戏很好看，又唱又跳，感觉是好莱坞版本的传统印度戏，没有一幕会让你闲下来或感到闷，非常适合年轻人看。若你还没观赏这部电影，我建议你不妨去看看，可暂时舒缓学业或考试的压力。

看了戏，我们继续室内的游戏，并且拍了不少照片。就这样边走边玩，不知不觉就到了12点多，肚子有些饿。许多餐馆都打烊了，人潮不再。走了好久，我们最终决定在 Burger King 买汉堡吃。吃完了，我们回到各自的房间。梳洗一遍后，是时候睡觉了。骏骅很快就睡着了。今天那么早到 KL Sentral，又跟大家玩了一整天，一定很累吧。我也是很累，但一整晚睡不着，很多东西在脑里徘徊，由早到晚的画面好像在不断重播一样。一想到早上在路上独自走向 KL Sentral 那一段，心中就冒起一股孤单无助的感觉。我尝试控制自己的思绪，但最终都是以失败告终。看着熟睡中的骏骅，心里有的只是“羡慕”。

第二天
就这样折腾了一整夜，直到早上7点闹钟响了，我才满腹不甘地“起床”。待所有人都准备好了，我们就到 First World Cafe 享用自助式早餐（免费的，已包括在云顶888特惠配套内）。

这天的活动是户外游戏。吃了早餐，我们回房间去休息及为接下来的活动做准备。由于要到户外去，天气又非常冷，再加上我没带冷衣（我跟本没有冷衣），大方的彩莲把她其中一件冷衣借给我穿，实在太感谢她了...

在户外，我们玩了非常多的游戏，如各式各样的过山车、海盗船（第一次玩）、Spinner、Marry Go Round及很多很多。天气变化大，一时烈日当空，一时浓雾笼罩，冷得不得了。正当我们排队等着玩 Bumper Boat 时，突然间冷雾笼罩四周，连在前方玩着 Bumper Boat 的人都看不清楚了。后来雾退了，但是却下起雨来，游戏暂停。

我们回到 First World Plaza 的 Pizza Hut 享用午餐。吃完后，我们分道扬镳。由于我整夜没睡，我非常累，也没心情继续游戏，所以我回到房间歇一歇，他们三人则分头行事。睡醒了，我发简讯给他们询问他们的所在地。由于在房间里的手机讯号弱，简讯难发又难收。那时彩莲和惠晶在玩 Bumper Boat，骏骅在戏院外。我发简讯给骏骅说要去戏院与他会合，但因为手机讯号弱，当骏骅收到简讯时，我已在戏院外，而他则刚回到酒店房间外，没“钥匙卡”不能进房，结果打道回戏院。

我俩在 First World Plaza 游荡，后来去到户外与女生们会合。找到惠晶时，彩莲正排队玩“跳楼机”，真是女中豪杰，我和骏骅就没那个勇气挑战“跳楼机”，只能站在平地给她精神上的支持。后来我们也玩了别的游戏。到了傍晚7时许，游乐场内的设施大多数都结束了，我们就回到 First World Plaza 去。斟酌了不久，除了惠晶以外，我们其他人买了“棺材”这部戏的票。真正的上映日期是星期四，但从星期二开始就有销售半夜场的票。

接下来我们回到房间休息，并解决晚餐。洗脸后我才发现自己的脸颊和鼻子都被阳光灼伤了，骏骅也一样，但他还伤风了。到了晚上11时许，我和骏骅到楼下的 Watson's 购买骏骅所需的眼药水。我们也贪爽买了面膜。回房滴了眼药水后，我和骏骅就到处走走。他带我从 First World Plaza 到另外一方的建筑去四处走，又到户外吹冷风。我们到处逛了一遍，也拍了一些照，再回到 First World Plaza，在 Starbucks 外休息，等待1.30am的到来。

时间快到了，我们上了厕所就前往戏院，边排队拿零食边等待彩莲。当我们进入戏院内时，电影已经开始播映了。我们看的是由莫文蔚主演的泰国惊悚片“棺材”。这是我生平第一次看半夜场电影，也是我第一次在戏院看恐怖鬼片。故事讲述泰国一个睡棺材趋坏运的习俗。莫文蔚患上了癌症，结果前往泰国改运。后来她的癌细胞全没了，但未婚夫却遇上车祸而死亡，而她也被未婚夫的鬼魂干扰... 故事所要带出的讯息是坏运是赶不走的，它只会从自己身上转移至亲人身上。

看完了电影时已是凌晨3点了。我们边抱着自己那冷到发抖的身体边走回房间。洗刷完毕，又是时候睡觉了。

第三天
第三天早上，我们又到餐厅吃早餐。吃了早餐，我和骏骅回房间敷面膜（也是第一次）。收拾了东西，我们就退房，搭缆车回云顶半山，再从那里搭巴士回 KL Sentral。难得可以跟好友到外游完，我非常开心。现在回到吉隆坡，感觉就像从梦境中回到现实一样，要调整自己的心情了，对之前发生的事感到再怎么不舍都必须放弃。我们在 KL Sentral 那里“分手”。我和骏骅回自己的家，但路线不同，彩莲和惠晶则回学院宿舍去（她们来自东马）。

三天两夜的云顶之旅就这样画上句点了，不知何时再有机会和他们去旅行。虽然这几天我感到很累，但却很开心。现在必须转变心情了。还有几个星期就要考试，是时候努力了。

愿大家身体健康，考试顺利，尤其是骏骅、彩莲和惠晶。谢谢你们给了我美好的回忆。

被搞得团团转

2008-10-19T23:43:00.002+08:00

平时我都会在星期天晚上9时许回学院。原本我打算明天早上才回学院，因为明天的第一堂课是早上9点（原本8点的IELTS取消了）。

正当我在享用着晚餐时，突然收到一封简讯。由于学院闹水荒而为大家带来非常多的困扰，讲师们大致上都同意取消明天的课，好让学生们多些机会在家享受顺畅无阻的水源。除了物理课以外，其他的科目的课全取消了！阅读完这封简讯后，我的心情非常复杂，在想着到底该几时回学院才好。

物理讲师说不上她的课没关系，她了解我们的困扰。我想了又想，也发简讯给很多人。头痛了很久，最终决定明晚才回学院，不上中午的物理课了。虽然下了决定，我的心情仍非常地乱，心想这个决定还真大胆，竟然敢“逃课”！当然不只是我这么做，还有很多人都跟我一样。反正大部分的课都取消了，早点回去也只是多受苦，倒不如留在家更好。

就这么决定吧（心里还是忐忑不安）！

我就像往常一样看看电视，读读数。到了晚上11时许，我上网写这篇文章，准备上载到部落格。写着写着，手机响了－新简讯。

水供恢复了！ 但水很脏。炸到～～！！！！

天啊！还真是大整蛊！好不容易才稳定情绪，现在却“柳暗花明又一春”。又开始头痛了。冷静下来后，我决定明天中午就回学院上物理课。父母都睡着了，明天再告诉他们吧，

取消了那么多课，接下来这几天可要为补课忙了。一切都是那些非法采沙的人的错。如果他们没干非法的事，水管就不会爆，学院就不会制水，我也不必那么烦了。咳～

矛盾

2008-10-16T22:48:00.002+08:00

今天下午3时许上bio上到一半就听到一个广播，即KTT将制水3天。听到这广播后，所有人都非常震惊，冒出如“怎样冲凉？”，“怎样洗衣服？”等等令人担忧的问题。

正当大家非常紧张之际，不知是谁这样建议：“Cancel tomorrow’s class la, then we can go home today!”。果然，此言一出即得到大家的热烈支持，所以派了班长去跟数学讲师商量。其实我们明天就只有两小时的数学课，既然如此，干脆把课延迟到下周好了，毕竟学院制水耶，要怎么度过那3天？

过后有几个人，包括我，陪班长去找数学讲师。把情况告诉她后，她也很爽快地答应了。就这样，大功告成！接下来做什么？当然是马上打电话给父母叫他们来载我回家咯！

大多数人都各自安排交通离开学院，但仍有一些人则因为各种理由无法回家，必须在学院度过这几天。制水对我们来说是个可以让自己提早回家的好消息，但对另一些人来说却是坏消息，只能眼睁睁地看着别人高高兴兴回家去，心里一定很不是滋味。话虽如此，但我们也做不了些什么，唯有在心理默默祝福他们，再加上一句“对不起”咯。

By the way，我中午6时许已经回到家了。对于这突然捎来的消息，心情还蛮矛盾的。

开斋节庆典

2008-10-15T20:08:00.003+08:00

昨晚参加了我班举办的开斋节庆典，地点于学院的其中一间课室。节目包括了吃、喝、玩、乐，当然也少不了不间断的拍照环节。

当晚的食物由班上的Fiza的父母包办（特地在家准备好再送来学院呢），也有一些女生亲手制作饼干糕点与大家分享。原本我们有邀请讲师们一起庆祝，但她们全都放飞机。算了吧，不来更好（坏到~ ）。我们不断地边吃边拍照，每人都吃了好几轮。

把肚子塞满后，就是令人又期待又害怕的游戏环节。游戏很简单，大家围一个大圆圈，边播放音乐边传递两个包裹，一个为Truth，另一个为 Dare。当音乐停止时，拿着Truth的人必须由盒子中抽一个Truth的题目大爆料，而拿着Dare包裹的人当然则必须抽题目玩大冒险咯。在这之前我们每人各准备了“真心话”和“大冒险”的题目各一题，然后那些题目由一个人保管，到昨天才拿出来用。

真的很佩服那些朋友的创意。“真心话”的题目有： “Describe your first love”, “Criteria of your dream partner”,“ If you were to be with a person in de class, who would he/she be and why?”, “Point out a person in class, talk about his/her weakness and suggest how to change it”等等。当然，大家都很配合，很勇敢地回答问题，至于答案的真实性则有待研究。

“大冒险”的题目就更劲爆了： “Slap the person sitting to the right of you, then say ‘I Love You’”, “Dance like Michael Jackson”,“ Seduce a person of the same sex as sexy as possible”, “Turn your head 90o to the side, then turn your body for 10 rounds”, “Use your handphone to call a person, turn on the loudspeaker, then tell the person ‘I have something to tell you, I have a crush on you’”, “Give a kissing pose”, “Act like a crazy chicken”等等等等。每个人都“幸”参与，本人的是“大冒险”，至于做了些什么，四个字：无可奉告！

整个庆典于晚上11时许结束。把借来的桌子还给餐馆后我就回到宿舍去，洗刷完毕后上床睡觉，展开一段“失眠夜”。

一篇感人肺腑的故事

2008-10-13T21:03:00.001+08:00

今早考了化学和物理的“测验”，准确一点其实是quiz，不过过程是比较严肃的，不想小学那种充满互动性的quiz。

化学测验有客观和主观题。大部分的题目我都会回答，只不过有一些答案不确定。考完后那位讲师（新来的）念出我的名字，问我: “How many marks do you expect to get?” 为了安全，我说20分（总分为40）。大部分的人被问到时也是给这个答案。结果好的不灵丑的灵。那讲师说用铅笔回答的人将得0分。在客观题那部分，我用铅笔圈出答案；主观题呢我用钢笔回答。假设那讲师说的都是真的，我顶多也只能拿20分，因为前20题是客观题。我的情况还好，因为有些人预测自己将得0分。衰到~

这还没什么。紧接着的才是精彩的那部分。

来到物理这一科。只有三题主观题，每一题都有几题副题。第一题，我还勉强可以回答；第二、三题，我只写了几个字，其他部分都是空白。我不会回答，也不知怎的，我不敢把想法写下来（结果我的想法是正确的！！超懊恼！）。相信我的成绩是怎样大家都心知肚明了。考了这个试，我的心情沮丧得不得了，但表面上仍假装没事，就算把所有不快说出来也没人会理睬。

还有，我在餐馆定了晚餐（打包），说好晚上7点去拿。我7点15分才去餐馆，心想迟到了，结果还没煮好。我等了又等，问了又问，还是没有我的份。就连比我迟定的人都拿到了自己那份，我却还在餐馆发霉。等等等，一直到晚上8点才好… 原想取消订单，回宿舍吃面包当晚餐算了，但仔细想想，不值得为了这些小事跟自己怄气。
回到宿舍，孤孤单单地一个人吃晚餐，悲啊~

不过有一个好消息，跟我是没直接关系啦，是关于我的室友。他是我的学长，在今年6月的A Level AS大考中，他在数学获得了“Top in the World”的超高分。是世界级的噢! 全世界那么多人拿A Level，他竟然能拿到世界不知前几名的高分！（我在骄傲什么？又不是我拿到，ceh~）无论如何，真是可喜可贺，恭喜恭喜！

我的命运跟学长的有如一个在地，一个在天般悬殊。人各有命啊~~

考试季节到了

2008-10-12T00:51:00.002+08:00

明天就是全世界某些A level学生的“大日子”。有很多人将会从明天开始进行一个星期的AS 大考，这是整个A Level课程两个大考中的第一个，绝对重要。而我也有非常多的好友是其中的一分子，这包括了立恩、凯贤和本身学院内的朋友如Vincent等等。在这里要祝他们考试顺利、金榜题名和更多更多。

我本身还没资格参加这项大考，须等到明年。然而，我明天也有一个小考，或小测验。其实我并不清楚那是什么考试来的，只是有一天班长向大家宣布这突如其来的“噩耗”（对我来说是坏消息，对别人来说没什么，详细情形待一会儿再解释），听起来应该是不重要的考试（最好是这样，不然我会死得非常不堪入目）。真搞不懂这学院，突然间就给大家来个有惊无喜把戏，非要把学生训练成有做consistent study的insan不可，要令大家时时做好心理、生理和脑力准备。

问题就在这里。说到consistent study，我天天都有做。但是一听到有考试，我仍会非常忐忑不安。我今天做了一些复习，发现以前所学的东西都忘光了，剩下的记忆只有好几%。这次的考试要考的又涵盖那么多chapter，所剩的时间又那么少，我该怎么办？！上次的考试对我留下的阴影浮现了，我不想再次丢脸。我感到很怕，我不得不承认这阵子用错了读书策略，拼命地无师自通学习新东西，却把以前所学都忘了。

难得周末回到家，我却不能好好享受这个短假，还需承受考试压力。在学院拼了那么多天，我最想的就是回家松一松、看看电视节目、上上网、享受无需上课的快感。然而这一切计划都被这突如其来的考试搞砸了，欲哭无泪~

虽然我该找回的记忆非常多，该复习的东西也很多，我始终不想以读书来度过在家的时间，我仍希望享受家的舒适、家给我的安全感（我在学院的绝大部分时间都是处于高度戒备状态）。我还是决定放纵自己几天，我不要在家都与书为伍。

我还真羡慕我班的阿颖。昨天传短讯问她东西时才知道她人在云顶，超炸到！考试要到了他还有心情上云顶“pou”，够力。也对啦，人家上次考试得第一，这种小考对她来说根本是小事一桩，凭着平日的努力，这样的小事不需放在心上。又或者，她根本不在乎这考试，只因这真的是普通的小测验而已，而我也只是想太多了，希望是这样。

无论如何，愿所有在这考试季节中拼命的人都能如愿以偿，成功考取理想的成绩。

要开学了

2008-10-05T13:58:00.002+08:00

短短一个星期的假期将在几小时候告一段落，是时候回宿舍去了T_T。下一个“长假”（其实也只是一个星期的短假）好像是两个月后，哎～

早在几天前与KTT的朋友用MSN谈天时已发现大家开始感叹快乐时光的瞬间流逝。他们的MSN Instant Message充斥着依依不舍和消极的情绪，更让人伤心的就是像这样的东西：2 more days...。简单几个字，却令大家产生共鸣，不禁为是时候回到学院和宿舍展开另一轮的无聊生活感到悲哀。

这个学院，咳，我已不想再提了，总之就是没得救。要离开温暖窝，被逼回到这样的学院去，还真是惨绝人寰...

虽然如此，大家都默然接受这残酷的事实、乖乖收拾心情准备开始新生活，只因大家都了解再怎么叹气都只是在浪费时间。快乐的日子要过，不快乐的日子也要过，与其一整天闷闷不乐，倒不如高高兴兴的过日子。所有人都这样想，对于无法改变的现实，大家能做的也只有妥协、默默承受，不断地以这样的东西自我安慰：山不转，路转；路不转，就只好人转咯。

无论如何，愿大家开学快乐（虽然很难）、笑口常开、万事顺意。

道别

2008-10-02T23:00:00.003+08:00

已经过了几天
到目前为止
我的决心仍没被动摇

再这样下去
一切即将结束
所有的事物将成为历史
被遗忘被唾弃

虽然不知还需多少时间
还需承受多少煎熬和负担
还有多少不舍、不甘
但我坚信
长痛不如短痛

放弃你
需要勇气

忘记你
更需要决心

我要阻止你操控我的人生
我要停止在乎你
我要忘记你的好
我要开始没有你的新生活

永别了
我曾经最在乎的你

有假期=霉假期

2008-09-30T12:53:00.003+08:00

好不容易终于等到假期的来临，很想充实地度过这短短一个星期。

充实的定义是什么？

每天有不停止的活动、享受不完的娱乐？前提是，自己有没有足够的体力，和挥霍不完的$$？

在假期前就不断地告诉自己要好好享受假期。但是，说易做难。昨天才去逛街，花了不少钱，那今天又有什么节目呢？

一个都没有，一整天呆在家而已。

很想去旅游，但始终都只是想了又想，想到假期都过完了，开学了，又要过着那枯燥的日子，回到那个我不喜欢的地方去。

假期对我来说，应该是指不必在学院度过的日子吧。

八月十九的中秋

2008-09-19T18:24:00.004+08:00

又是一篇延迟上载的文章。昨晚我和一大班朋友参加了由MPP（Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar）举办的提灯笼游行。话说我原本是不想参加的，因为我们必须提灯笼到山顶上去，路途遥远，回到宿舍时一定整身汗，又臭又粘，而且我也不喜欢那么夜又洗澡。

大约晚上九时，我到宿舍楼下买面包，正想上楼时就在楼梯口碰见阿骅和他的室友，结果被他们带到集合处去，回不了宿舍，而我身上只有钱包和面包。集合处那里有非常多人，大家忙着点亮`灯笼，也有很多人忙着“谋杀”菲林。

好不容易准备好后大伙儿才浩浩荡荡地上山去。街灯昏暗，但被各种颜色的灯笼点缀的地方从远处望去简直美得不得了。路途中大家有说有笑，也有人高声歌唱（唱的都是老歌），也有人停在半途重新点亮已熄灭的灯笼。

终于到达山顶，也是“开工”的时候了。大家又忙着拍照。只要有相机或手机的地方就有人群，镁光灯闪个不停，欢呼声尖叫声也此起彼落。大家忙着拍照，也有人忙着被拍，若说每个人出现在相机或手机的次数有一百次也不算夸张。除此之外，热心的MPP（学生代表）也在那儿团团转，为大家准备蜡烛，打火机和月饼。有创意的人，除了提灯笼，也玩起烟火来（包括我，阿骅，Eric，Christine，Lynn等等）。

到了十一时许，我们下山回学院去。仍有一些人意犹未尽，聚集在餐馆内外高谈阔论。我，阿骅和一班女生也不例外，每人各点了饮料，在餐馆外围着桌子谈古论今，废话也不少，那班女生更互称彼此lao zha bo, xiao zha bo等等。谈到兴起时，我们疯狂笑到脸抽筋，完全忘了那时已是晚上十二点了。

后来我们过分的笑声“唤出”了闻名遐迩的Pak Cik Parang（午夜屠夫）。只见他站在公寓的阳台，双眼死瞪着我们不放，这是我们才收敛了一些，以避免被他拿着parang刀追着跑。我不是在开玩笑，任何打扰他的人的下场不是被他追，被他打就是被他骂。这类事常有，院方拿他没办法，就算报警把他捉走，迟些他还是会被放出来为害人间。

问题就在这里。我和阿骅的公寓在他楼上那一层。大家很担心我俩的安全，怕那个叔台会在楼梯那里拿着parang刀等我们。后来我和阿骅战战兢兢回宿舍去，幸好那屠夫没在等我们。安全回到宿舍后，我发了简讯给阿莲及阿颖报平安。

一年一度的中秋灯笼游行和午夜惊魂就这样结束了，我并没有后悔参加这个活动。致阿骅：“我承认你的贡献啦，要不是你把我捉出来，我也不会有个难忘的回忆。我不在你面前说这一番话就是不想看你飘飘然的样子！”

让大家看看几张照片吧！（只有几张，我还没向别人拿回所有的照片）

灯笼集会！

猜那一只脚是我的？

Yeah!!!

角色扮演

2008-09-18T13:03:00.000+08:00

在刚才的英语课（IELTS），我们进行了英语会话测验。讲师她想了解我们的英语会话能力，于是想出了这个测验：我们与自己的朋友对换身份，然后到课室前假设自己是对方，向大家讲述“自己”的故事，关于家庭背景，未来展望等等。

我和阿骅“交换”身份，玩“大爆料”，其他人也有自己的拍档。

大家一个接着一个把“自己”的故事略说一遍，当中也不乏一些有趣的。比如说我的一个女性朋友很不幸地得跟一个男生调换身份，所以被逼“女扮男装”。那男生的双亲皆是师训学院的讲师，所以我的朋友这样介绍：“My parents are teachers of teachers who are going to be teachers in the future.”

也有人介绍“自己”时施“偷龙转凤”之计，明明本尊的偶像网球手是Rafael Nadal，她却用自己的偶像Roger Federer取而代之。

另外更有马来男生把握这大好机会，利用朋友向心仪的华裔女生表白，不单指名道姓，还把别人依次排列，有第一及第二选择。他的朋友还替他表明自己喜欢华裔女生，过后更向在场的巫裔女生道歉。

除此之外，我也学到新东西。原来电玩DOTA代表着另一个意思，即Dunia Orang Tiada Awek (光棍世界)。

仍有些人来不及出场课就结束了，期待下一堂课。

对不起

2008-09-17T11:02:00.000+08:00

昨天下午我不小心把阿骅的小熊公仔头顶的一小部分弄断了。其实直接的元凶并不是我，因那部分断的时候我的手并没触碰到小熊，但我仍须附上某些责任。只见阿骅双眼通红，明明眼泪就要夺眶而出了，但还是为了面子强忍泪水，故作镇定。看到他都快哭出来了，还真的被吓倒。无论如何，我怎样都得“补锅”。

我的心情也被影响了。原本想跟往常一样乖乖温习功课，但却因为这件事，一整天的计划都打乱了。傍晚跑步后，我从Hui Zhi那里借来针线，势必把“断肢”接驳回去。果然皇天不负有心人，我成功了！而且手工非常完美，没95%都有90%（真有当医生的天分呢，哈哈！）

后来我把小熊归还给阿骅。睡眼惺忪的他只把小熊抱得很紧，什么话都没说，真好奇他那时心里在想些什么。任务算是完成了，但我的内疚感仍旧不能消退。是我想太多吗?

晚上八时许，我和阿骅到餐馆点了蛮多东西吃（比起平时的食量），有铁板伊面，炸蘑菇，nugget和所谓的红茶加糖。平时我只是以一碟炒饭解决自己的晚餐，昨天却因为下午发生的事，也许是想借食物释放压力吧，第一次叫了那么多东西吃。我们在那里边吃边聊，直到餐馆内除了工作人员外只剩下我俩,我们才肯结账离开。

在阿骅的公寓内耗了一些时间后我才回去自己的窝。实在没什么心情读书，所以才在互联网游荡，但connection时有时无，扫兴兼失败，导致今天才能把这篇文章上载至部落格。

今天是伊斯兰教的不知什么节日，所以没课。原本打算昨天回家去，今晚才回KTT，但最终都是打消了念头。

暂时就说到这里吧。还有，我国的政局将有什么变化？拭目以待。

中秋晚会

2008-09-13T23:42:00.001+08:00

今晚参加了蒲种八英哩蒂莎古仔花园的马华支会所举办的中秋晚会。参加此晚会的目的有三：吃东西，拿奖励金及会朋友。

中秋晚会除了游戏及表演（经典名曲大比拼）外，当然少不了吃咯。不过很可惜，我只“蜻蜓点水”了一盘就需把晚餐匆匆结束，因颁发奖励金的环节很快就开始了（犹记得两年前我等这个环节等到身心俱疲，那时拿的是PMR奖励金）。从UPSR开始，然后到PMR，接着SPM，很快就轮到我了。我是最后一个从高祥威博士那里得到“金包”的人，过后再拍了几张照。

得到多少钱？不多，意思意思RM290。嗯，应该够我在开斋节假期时逛街玩乐的消费吧。若想帮我对这笔钱“开刀”，想我请客的话，动作要快噢！

在这晚会我与俊杰，钧淋，学伦来了个小重逢。虽然大伙儿只聊废话，但仍非常感激他们肯赏脸应邀出席这晚会，不然我肯定会度秒如年。后来我们要参加猜灯谜游戏，虽然知道很多题的答案，但就是没有笔把答案写在纸上投入“答案盒”。我和俊杰因此走到附近的杂货店买了一枝钢笔再回到马华支会。才刚要写下答案，我妹就来告诉我该回家了…

结果在离开前我跟大伙儿拍了一张照，而他们则要到某mamak档观赏球赛。我们就这样结束了这场相遇。不过我还是很高兴能与他们小聚，很久没见面了。

在这里祝大家中秋节快乐，月圆人团圆！我到现在仍未尝过任何月饼…

肺话

2008-09-08T21:44:00.005+08:00

明知该放弃

却始终不愿死心

残酷的事实令自己痛苦

却仍奢望柳暗花明又一村

一次又一次的打击

一个又一个的事实

全都摆在眼前了

为什么我还在做梦？

为什么我那么固执？

越想越多

越想越痛苦

越痛苦越孤独

瞻前顾后

到最后

还是一个人承受

很想让它知道

但它却把我越抛越远

它不顾我的感受

它继续享受着快活

它不愿把心思留给我

它根本不把我放在心里

为什么我却还那么在乎它？

注：此文章纯属肺（费）话，请别把时间浪费于揣测谁是“它”。我是绝对不会100%坦白的...

七仔

2008-09-04T19:15:00.003+08:00

终于把考试成绩收集完了。非常令人失望，本人的成绩是1A和3B，90分以上才算A，而且本人唯一的A是刚好过关，准准90分，不多不少。至于其他的科目，算了吧，免提。

在班上的排名，如无意外，本人位居第七。原本该排第六的，怎知有两个人共享第五名，结果本人就只好沦落到这个地步。歹命~

怎么办？再接再厉咯~

值得一提的是，前十名内有八个华人... ...

适应中

2008-09-02T19:11:00.004+08:00

已经很久没update这部落格了，现在就给大家报告有关我的最新消息吧。

今天已经正式签购学院的Wi-Fi服务了，RM100四个月，但是上网速度非常慢。没办法啦，再慢都得忍！住在一个鸟不生蛋，狗不拉屎的地方，是酱的咯，咳~

由这星期一起，我们可爱的马来同胞们开始斋戒。为了配合他们和那些在这期间考试的学生，所有人的上课时间表都有所改变。每节课由原本的一小时减至45分钟，中午12.30 至2.00是休息时间。

现在还有另一个问题：晚餐怎么解决? 学院的餐馆晚上八点才开炉煮东西。学生那么多，煮到来，尸变咯！有些人在外吃午餐后顺便打包晚餐的份，但是，事物放了那么久，由于现在是斋戒月，学院的两间餐馆皆没提供午餐。所以？我们只好乘坐学院的巴士到Taman Cempaka去享用午餐。巴士只有一辆，学生的数目却那么庞大，该怎么办呢？好有什么？！挤咯！可怜到~
不会变质么？可怜~

我现在还需一些时间来适应这突如其来的改变，希望一切顺利，还有，开斋节开点到来！！（从来没试过那么期待这节日）

自我剖白

2008-08-24T00:19:00.004+08:00

不喜欢被人刺激
却又很明白自己需靠外来刺激以恢复斗志

不喜欢被挑战
因为那会让我体内的恶血奔腾

不喜欢当个弱者
憋着的脆弱只会对灵魂造成折磨

好胜倔强不轻易妥协
还有更多更多硬邦邦的性格将陪伴我一生

虽然听起来贬胜于褒
但就是这些因子支撑着我
让我在茫茫人海和千万个可能中
一步一步走下去

我不想输
我不要输
我不能输
我不会输

我就是这样

你一定不知道你就是“你”

2008-08-22T23:18:00.005+08:00

讨厌自己
讨厌自己的视线离不开你

惦记着看不见的你
烦恼着在眼前的你

该忘记
该存放心里
是分不明
还是不想理清

想寻找你的踪迹
却害怕承受残酷的打击
很想继续下去
但又怀疑自己的勇气

明知该放弃
好胜的心却束缚自己
恨自己的无能为力
讨厌被你操纵的自己

该随心
任意放纵自己
还是恢复原来的自己
做回个绝缘体

很想诚实面对自己
更想瞬间失忆
忘记你
忘记压力

该做回我
最原始的自己?

放假了！！

2008-08-15T14:20:00.002+08:00

昨天考完了最后一个科目（物理）后就回家了（我并没好好跟朋友们道别，哈哈，坏到～）。

还要说什么呢？

假期到了！！！

*欢呼*

yeah yeah

我这一辈子从来没那么重视假期，这是我第一次那么期待假期，虽然只有一个星期。

欲哭无泪

2008-08-12T15:30:00.001+08:00

超不爽的！！

今早考完了化学，结果？

昨天就有了不祥的预感，没想到“好的不灵，丑的灵”，竟然那么准！

昨晚温习时发现了一道问题不会做，没想到（我想你也猜到），考试里有出，还一模一样。这次，我还是不会做。。。就这样，我失去了至少6分！！！更惨的在这里，那题目的答案我记得一清二楚，但却做不出来。

歹命。。。

虽然这种现象时时都有，却不能说是司空见惯，只因这类事再度发生时仍会令人痛彻心扉。

6分，不算多，当然也不是一件小事。本人所就读的学院的A等标准是90分以上。我现在是至少失去了6分，还没加其他可能会犯的错误呢。为什么对分数那么执着？要想想，围绕在我身边的是几百个天才份子，若我犯下一个小错，我就会马上被编入“弱智”这少数族群。我不否认这关系到面子问题和我kiasu，但，咳～～试从我的角度想一想吧。。。

跟骅抱怨时，他也只能勉强对我笑笑，要不然就假扮Tom Cruise在Mission Impossible电影中持枪左躲右闪的动作逗我笑。哦对了，他破解到那一题，炸到！！恨不得把他削成薄片铺在地上。

气死人！！

当自信与0划上等号

2008-08-04T19:13:00.002+08:00

紧绷的心情、不规律的心跳、沉重的压力，我今天就是带着这些负担出席由早至午的课。为什么会这样？原因有二：

一，考试要到了，却还没做足准备功夫。虽然这已是我人生中不知第几次的考试了，但始终是踏入高等学府后的第一个考试，所以我非常重视它。很想知道和别人相比之下自己的水准是处哪个等级，同时也不愿意被列入“需特别照顾”那一群。

二，自信心崩塌。不知怎么了，今天的负面感触特别多。上数学课时，发现自己所能回答的问题屈指可数。以前高中时学的 differentiation, integration 和更多的东西都归还给大自然了。看到身边的朋友机关枪似的不停地对答如流，自己却仍在同一个数学题徘徊，我简直自卑得不得了，自信心都干涸了。

除此之外，我前天才温习的化学科，现在竟已忘了70％！上物理课时又不知讲师在说什么（她只是不断重复着方程式，并没解释当中的原因），结果我带着满脑的问号离开讲堂。

更惨的是，每当我正享受宁静时，各种干扰却接踵而来。

我这样的状态和水准，怎么应付考试呢？了解我的老朋友和知己都不在身边，我该找谁诉苦呢？

PICOM PC Fair

2008-08-03T19:02:00.002+08:00

I went to PICOM PC Fair this afternoon with my parents. This was the first time I joined this event and as expected, the exhibition venue (Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre) was FLOODED with people.

OK, lets go to the main point.

I bought (actually sponsored by my uncle Looi, TQ!!!) a HP Pavilion dv6500 Notebook PC, with specifications like Intel Centrino Duo, Intel Core 2 Duo CPU and much much more which I don't really understand, haha. My dad also bought a Canon PIXMA MX308 all-in-one office printer on behalf of my uncle.

This notebook is the first in my life, never imagine that one day I would own such thing which seems so far and unreachable. I'll take good care of it and treasure it like no tomorrow, haha.

Again, thank you very much Uncle Looi for your generous sponsor!

One more thing, about the survey "Do you agree with the idea of setting my blog private and restricting the viewing of visitors?", it is obvious that disagreements outweigh the other by 3 votes. Hence, I won't set my blog private and just like last time, open to everyone!

比较

2008-08-02T18:44:00.004+08:00

虽说“人比人比死人”，但有些话若不说出来就如哽在喉，不吐不快。

今午和立恩于O.T.茶楼享用午餐，由于蔡姐没到，因此就只有我俩在那聊个不停，都是有关学院的事。过后我到他家拜访，也与他母亲闲聊了几句。

过后！（重点在这里）

立恩让我看看他学院讲师所提供的资料和笔记。那些笔记都非常完整。看得出该讲师花了许多心思从各方搜罗资料（非常仔细），经过编撰后再交给学生，非常敬业和专业。

相比起来（我就是爱比较），本人就没立恩那么好命。本人所就读的学院的讲师所教的都是非常表面的东西，并不透彻、详细。有许多课题，讲师都轻轻带过。当学生有疑问时，若讲师没办法回答，他/她就会ngi ngi ngam ngam几句跳过“陷阱”，又或者er er ya ya后告诉学生考题内不会有这类题目。更别说为学生准备笔记了。有时会派几张印有东西的薄纸给学生，但有素质的资料根本是天方夜谭。顶多讲师会说：“Go home refer XXX book, if u have."/"U hafalkan, fahamkan sendiri."

我只能说，一分钱，一分货，更何况我这种不用付钱的。素质教育？甭想了，慢慢等啦！

真不明白这学院的管理层的脸皮怎么那么厚。不提升学院的硬体设施就算了，至少也要提供有素质的讲师嘛。JPA付了那么多钱给学院（A levels的学费+杂费=RM30K++，JPA替300++学生付费），学院理论上和道德上都应该提供相等的服务。结果到头来学生还是求人不如求己，真是可怜。

算了，考试要到了，愿上天保佑。

ANNOUNCEMENT

2008-07-19T12:57:00.007+08:00

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Please be informed that orange-wasabi.blogspot.com will be made private and viewing is restricted to only readers I choose, effective 3rd August 2008 (Sunday).

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However, if you disagree with the idea of setting my blog private, please leave a message in my blog or cast your vote in the survey section. Final decision will be made based on majority of votes.

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“惊喜”

2008-07-17T20:45:00.002+08:00

今早五点半，我和骅由学院的第二出口溜出外（学院的宵禁是由凌晨十二点开始至早上六点）。为什么当别人还在沉睡梦乡时偷跑出去？嘿嘿，是因为我们要看日出（无聊leh，不知为什么，我们就是想要看）。今天的课下午一点才开始，就算看了日出，过后回到宿舍后可以再饱睡一顿。

周围黑漆漆的，在街灯的微弱照耀下并以手机的辅助灯开路，我们走了好长一断路，偶尔会有一、二辆车经过，但周围的环境仍一片死寂（我们一定是疯了，也不知是哪来的胆子，不顾危险，一大清早在外游荡）。

后来我们来到了一道直而向上斜的马路，那里一辆车也没有。宽阔的马路上，街灯浪漫的灯光照耀下，就只有我俩拖着缓慢的步伐往山顶走去，陪伴我们的是林宇中的“干物女”一歌。

除了我们，四周半个人影也没有。冷风轻拂我们的肌肤，一股接着一股的寒意贯穿脊椎，直攻入心。当时所能听见的只有虫鸣声和我们的脚步声，骅更发现有只猫头鹰飞过。

突然，一股与之前不同的气流由后向我们逼近，背后传来了一些声音，那东西离我们越来越近。。。

回头一看。。。！

是警察车。

我俩被警方interview了一番，我的身份证号码更被抄了下来，骅因为忘记带身份证而逃过此劫，不过我们的心情都很平稳，因为没做亏心事嘛（除了逃出学院那part）。我们被告知山顶劫案和kes pecah rumah一箩筐，已有一些警员在山顶驻守着。后来？我们被人劝回去宿舍咯。。。(但是，今天中午，我、骅和Christine跑步到山顶上去，那里只有一所国小，何来kes pecah rumah？！炸到！！)

真扫兴，什么mood都没有了。为了看日出而白起床（我在半夜十二点半后才上床睡觉，五点钟就醒了），现在又被迫打道回府，真不是滋味。咳。。。

我们也是以偷偷摸摸的方式回宿舍。过后就补眠咯。

这个经历是本人的生平第一次。明明自己很清楚了解各种危险的可能性，但仍一意孤行。本人当然也不是“学坏”，只是学会体验“生活”。我不想几年后回想起这一年半的生活时只想得起“读书”二字。

当然我也感到很庆幸，原因有二：

一，骅竟然愿意陪我一起癫，真够朋友！
二，我们一路平安，真是上天保佑。

End of 2nd Week at KTT

2008-07-12T22:38:00.003+08:00

I went home this afternoon because there was a replacement class for Hari Raya holidays in the morning.

Glad to be home! (Sorry to those who can't go home, I don't mean to stimulate your homesickness.) After 5 stressful days without TV, finally I can enjoy few hours of comfort in front of the TV (no need to squeeze and share the pity & mini TV airing dull shows at student lounge with people of whatever type you can imagine).

I had my first lesson on Monday. The subjects I'm taking are Biology, Chemistry, Physics, Mathematics, IELTS, Pengajian Malaysia and Moral Studies. Classes have started for all the mentioned subjects except Moral Studies.

Different subjects, different lecturers, different personalities & different ways of teaching.

I'm very desperate to express my thoughts & feelings. I've waited the opportunity to share & complain with people outside the college for so many days. The urge to pour out the goods & bads (if any) is so strong that I can't resist. For safety's sake, I won't reveal the names of the lecturers that I'm going to analyse and the subjects he/she teaches (but you can ask me personally). Pls note that the characteristics & personalities of individuals listed below are of random pick.

Ok lets start.

Lecturer A's teaching speed is quite slow (precisely very slow), hope things change next week but not too much. A is very proud (or obsessed) with the word "CIE" (Cambridge International Examination) and recognises no books other than those endorsed by CIE. A kept asking questions where students are reluctant to respond to, but A still "encourages" the students to answer, to react positively, to not follow the definitions of terms in the book A trusts most.

Lecturer B is superb. Attending B's lessons is like taking part in marathon or Olympic games or any sports that require speed & accuracy & the ability to stay calm & hold your composure when your hand sores due to the amounts of notes you copied, not to mention the homeworks are taking you days to finish (some students drop that particular subject because of the killing & intimidating amount of homeworks, causing them unable to study or do revision for other subjects).

Lecturer C is the 1 I dislike most (after much consideration, I decided to refrain myself from using the word that starts with "h"). C gave "entertainment" a new meaning: smirching innocent souls. C enjoys telling useless jokes & giving brainless opinions with a hell disgusting look & annoying tone.

Lecturer D is quite a dedicated person because I saw the notes that D prepared for lessons & I felt like "Finally! A good lecturer.". But when D started displaying signs of I'm-your-lecturer-&-no-way-I-will-act-stupid-&-get-bullied, I realised that I must'nt hope for anything or anyone except myself.

There are so much more that I would like to express here, but to avoid troubles, just to name a few, "You're so disrespectful towards your lecturers", "you thought you know a lot", "you have no rights to judge" and etc, I think that it is time to put a stop after lecturer D.

As a student (or perhaps 'future leader' that will stop racial polarisation or whatever that sounds heroic), I demand nothing other than freedom of speech (or blogging). Swallowing dissatisfaction blindly does more harm than good. I'm totally & obviously not a mutt that remains indifferent despite being treated not the way I expect.

I'm sure many of you out there will say: "Same case here at my school / college, but what to do?" Lets just pray that we can end our studies safely & excel in our field of choice.

Hope for a better tomorrow!

Back with stories about KTT

2008-07-05T16:23:00.003+08:00

Attention. This is de longest post I have ever posted. Please be patient while reading and I hope u enjoy de information I provide below. Thanks.

Okay, it had been 5 days since I arrived at Kolej Teknologi Timur (KTT) in Sepang, Selangor. I arrived at de college on Monday morning (30 June 2008) but I visited de college 1 day earlier. My first impression of de college was “OMG! Is this where JPA medic / dentistry scholars study n stay?!”. As I had previously seen a photograph of de front view of de college, I wasn’t that surprised compared to my friends. De college is quite secluded, some even said it is away from civilization. It is actually 2 blocks of shop lots built up an inclining hill, so there are lots of staircases. It offers A levels programmes for JPA n MARA students n other diploma programmes for non-sponsored students. I’m taking A levels and I’m a full-time India-bound dentistry students.

Just an introduction about de college. It comprises 2 blocks of shop lots, de first 2 floors from de ground consist of lecture halls (got very funny “scent” inside), main hall (gosh, u can never ever imagine how de MH looks like), cafeterias selling malay food (can SMS to order food ), staff room, minimarket, student lounge etc... De floors above are apartments where de students or non-student residence stay (as I mentioned earlier, the place is actually shop lots, just that de college rented most of de place for own use). Each apartment has a big living room, 2 bedrooms, 1 bathroom, 1 kitchen, 1 balcony n other stuffs like tables, chairs, beds, wardrobes n much more. Each rooms is to be shared by 2 person, so each apartment has 4 students.

I’m staying at apartment 11-2-A3 (tangga 11, 2nd floor, apartment 3), but there’s only 3 person staying there including me. I share a room with a senior, Jesse (he’s a male, not female, a part-time india-bound medic student twinning with Melaka Manipal College. He has done his AS level, now taking A2 and will be leaving de college at de end of this year. He’s very kind and helpful, his hospitality made me feel comfortable when I first arrived at de college.). Another housemate of mine is Vincent, he’s a full time Czech-bound medic student. My apartment is facing de back (mountains n jungle) while some are facing de front (street n empty shop lots).

What I meant by Tangga is staircases which bring people up to their apartment. There are more than 10 Tanggas, n I’m using de 11th Tangga to reach my apartment. At Tangga 10, dunno which floor, there is an apartment owned by a non-student residence. Everyone calls him Pak Cik Parang. He hates noises especially during midnight. There were incidences where my seniors made loud noises during midnight n de Pak Cik Parang was damn furious that he brought his parang and arrived at de outside of de seniors’ apartment. De uncle shouted, roared, cursed n hit de apartment door hard n even hacked de door with his parang.

So, those staying at Tangga 10 must be extra precautious especially in de night. They must not be noisy or else they will invite de uncle for a terrifying nightmare. I’m staying at Tangga 11 (luckily) but also need to be careful. Sounds scarying leh?

All de students sponsored by JPA are divided into 8 groups: 2 groups for full-time (FT) India-bound medic students, 2 groups of FT India-bound dentistry students while de other groups consist of Indonesia / Poland / Czech Republic-bound medic students. There are also students sponsored by MARA who arrived 1 day later than JPA’s, but I’m not sure where will de students go after their A levels. What I observed is that de number of female students is more than de male students. Take my group as an example, there are about 30 female students but only 8 male students, if I’m not mistaken. However, de conditions of other groups are different, or better.

There are hundreds of future medic / dentistry students or perhaps future doctors at KTT. So, can u imagine how competitive it is at KTT despite de awful condition?

De students came from all over Malaysia. I have a few friends from Sarawak, they are very excited to tour around Selangor because they heard there are lots of shopping malls in Selangor. There are also people from Selangor, like me, so we can go home very weekends. De college offers transport service (bus or van) to take students to Giant, LCCT, KTM Nilai or pasar malam, but de students have 2 pay for de tickets which range from RM0.50 to RM10.00.

I arrived at KTT on 30 June 2008. There were soooooo many people there. De registration process took me hours to finish where I have to submit my documents to JPA officers, admins of KTT, take souvenirs, after that I was brought to my apartment by a senior. Thanks to her. Upnext was de opening ceremony of de orientation week (5 days) followed by hours n hours of briefing about A Levels, orientation week n also briefing by JPA officers alternating with break times. I ate my dinner which was maggi mee at 12am++. I wore my formal shirt n pants (all students there must wear formal attire for formal events n tutorial / lectures everyday) for more than 14 hours (I took my shower at 12am++ because de day was packed with activities).

All of us were given overwhelming pressure although it was our first day at KTT. According to de JPA officers, all of us have to meet de cut-off points (12 points) in order to be continuously sponsored by JPA. Let me explain de so-called “cut-off points”. All of us have to take 3 subjects in A Levels, namely Physics, Biology and Chemistry (it’s a different case for de india-bounds, I’ll explain later). Getting an A (90-100%, where 89.8 is considered B) for a subject will contribute 5 points, B contributes 4 points, C is 3 points n so on. If one managed to obtain 3 A’s for de 3 subjects, he gets 15 points. If de accumulated points of a person is less than 12, his / her JPA scholarship (precisely sponsorship) will be forfeited, meaning he / she has to pay for de degree programme.

For india-bound students, no matter medic or dentistry, we must take at least 3 subjects where mathematics is optional. In order to fly to India, we have to get an A for de 3 science subjects each, however, de result of maths is not taken into consideration. Maths is just an extra subject for us to meet de cut-off points. For instance, if a person gets A for physics, B for biology, B for chemistry n A for maths, his accumulated points will be 14 (take de highest 3). He still can receive sponsorship from JPA, but he can’t fly to India, instead, he will be sent to countries of lower cost such as Indonesia or finish his degree locally.

It is even harder for de Czech-bound students. Their A Levels takes only 1 year (really express) while mine is 1.5 years. Not only do they need to score above de cut-off points, they also need to take de entrance exam of Czech’s universities. If they pass, they still need to go through an interview. If they are successful in de mentioned steps, then only they can set foot into de universities.

Sounds tough n stressful leh? Awaiting us are cabaran demi cabaran.

Okay, enough of the academic stuff. De days that followed are full of activities like games, ice-breaking, college tour, varieties of briefings, do’s n don’t at KTT, telematch, aerobic exercise, performance training n much more. We have our performance training (for de closing ceremony on Friday) every night (until midnight) starting Tuesday n we have to wake up very early de next morning. We were very tired even in de morning. Some of my friends have big eye bags hanging below de eyes while I kept fishing during de briefings.

My group’s performance was a drama, which is a compilation of Disney’s fairy tales with KTT as de physical setting n Pak Cik Parang as de ending. I’m involved in de drama (but not de main character la of course) and we are de 1st runner-up among de 8 groups of JPA scholars n a few from MARA! After all, our hard work was not in vain. My group members held a celebration yesterday night but I didn’t join because I went home.

The above is a rough introduction about KTT n what I did few days ago. On my previous post dated 28 June 2008, I mentioned that I look forward to how I feel after de orientation week. Now I can say that I feel quite “light”, no longer nervous n tensed like last time. I adapt to de new environment quite well n I gained new friends who are very funny and crazy. Who says JPA scholars are bookworms and nerdy? You can never imagine how crazy we went during de orientation week.

Classes start next week. It’s time to get serious, again. And yes, thanks for your patience (if you read this post from top to bottom). BEST OF LUCK to you.

A New "TAG" Game

2008-07-05T16:15:00.003+08:00

Being tagged again :D Here goes:

1. the last person to tag you is?
Veronica Chuah .. long time no see ooo... wonder how is she now?

2.what is your relationship with him/her?
We were classmate, now she’s one of my best friends.

3.your 5 impressions of him/her?
Versatile (she can draw, dance, sing n much more), energetic (she can chat n laugh for de whooole day), pretty (yes she is), friendly and crazy (she gets very excited and produce exaggerated moves when dealing with an interesting topic. Don’t get angry ah.).

4.the most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
Hmm... de comment she left in the “voice out” section of my blog lo, de sentence “i know u can” is very powerful, it raises my confidence. I appreciate it very much.

5.the most memorable word he/she has say to you?
“I know u can”!

6.if he/she becomes your lover, you will...
Impossible.. I’m not her cup of tea, or coffee, whatever la, and vice versa. HAHA.

7.if he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
In which way she becomes my enemy? De possibility is super duper hyper low u know?

8.if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on...
Better don’t comment here... -.-!!

9.if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...
Give me 2 months to think ah...

10.the most desired thing to do for her now is?
Finish her tag questions...XD.

11.the overall impressions of him/her now is?
Pretty n smart lo (sure she’ll like this).

12.how do you think people around you will feel about you?
Err... weird?

13. the character you for yourself is?
Don’t really understand this question...

14.on contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Procrastination.

15.the most ideal person you wanna be is?
A very optimistic person.

16.for the person who cares and likes you, say something about them...
To all my friends, thanks for all your support, advice n concern, they make me stronger. I treasure everything u said n did. Really THANK YOU. And BEST OF LUCK. Let’s be de BEST n MOST OUSTANDING person in our school / college. Yea!!

17. ten people to the quiz.
Most people I know has already answered de quiz. Just to name a person here: Andrew.

18.who is de person having relationship with?
Andrew ah? I don’t really know who exactly is he having relationship with. Too many people related to him. Ahaha~

19.is the person a female or male?
Male. No doubt.

22.what is number he/she studying about?
Currently studying in form 6 in batu 8.

23.when was the last time you had a chat with?
If face-to-face, when I karaoke-d with him before I went to college; If via SMS, few days ago.

24.is number he/she single?
I think so, but most probably not available (heaheahea, don’t scold me ah).

25.talk something abt the person u named above.
Andrew is very intelligent, used to be n going to be de top student in Batu 8 again.
He’s also very capable... u can count on him.
Also, de most special thing about him is his sense of humour. Although sometimes very lame, but de jokes really tickle people.

无法控制思绪的悲哀

2008-06-28T23:51:00.004+08:00

倒数两天

离开熟悉的家园的日子慢慢逼近
陌生的环境将是我的第二个家
时间闪电般的流逝令我不禁感到恐惧

2008年的上半段即将告一段落
回想起几个月前的我
拿了驾照、尝试上班赚钱的感觉、体验血拼的快感。。。

上几个月内
我的确丰富了很多人生经验
真的很多

我比同龄的朋友们提早领悟各种人生道理
也明白及亲身体会各种挫折
幸好有一班好友给我安慰及鼓励
讲到这里我才发现
原来我的人缘（援）也不错
突然觉得自己好像老了很多

人生历练是增加了一些
但我在学术上却毫无进展
很多朋友都开学了
而我那历史性的起步则在本月30日才开始
又要回到书本的怀抱中了
很不是滋味
毕竟自己懒了那么久

很多人送我“加油”二字
我一定会好好利用他们的祝福
绝不让任何人失望

6月30日
我会移居到某某宿舍
适应新环境、新同学、新导师
长达五天的新生适应周是我目前最担心的
当中必有的“破冰环节”
是我最抗拒的
真不知是谁发明这烂游戏

与上一回儿
在国油科技大学的两天一日营不一样
这次没有了俊杰的陪伴
(上次真的太感谢你了!)
而是独自面对千万种可能
我讨厌幻想所带来的压力
我更厌恶无能抒发压力的自己

如无意外
我将于星期五或六回家
回那个唯一被我承认的家
真期待那天的来临
很想知道那时的我是以怎样的心情
为大家报告我前五天的经历

我现在的心情很复杂
迟些会转为担心、害怕
我不想睡觉
不想那天的来临
我仍在幼稚地逃避现实

我
想太多了吗?

回味无穷

2008-06-20T20:59:00.003+08:00

今天的《星洲日报》副刊刊登了一篇有关大马华人充满特色的俚语。

最近我实在没什么“料”好写了
所以在这里与大家分享几句比较经典的：
（注：“中”为中国人，“马”为大马华人）

中：从上海去苏州要多少个小时？
马：从上海去苏州要几粒钟？

中：这样你不是很不值得？
马：这样你嘛很不dai？

中：为什么？
马：做么？

中：你很强～
马：你很够力～

中：明天也叫他一起去吧！
马：明天叫“埋”他一起去！

中：我很郁闷……
马：我很“显”啊……
（“显”比郁闷的境界更高）

中：真被你气到…。
马：被你炸到…。

中：你很无聊！
马：你很废！

中：我们一起吃这碗面。
马：我们“公司”吃这碗面！

中：哇！
马：哇捞eh！

还有，我个人最爱－

中：今天的天气很热……
马：今天的天气热到……
（“到”字要拉长，然后没有下文了）

想与不想

2008-06-14T13:16:00.004+08:00

好久没更新此部落格了
实在没什么灵感
或特别的事发生

再过两个星期我就要开学了
真希望那天别那么快来
我还想轻松地享受与书本脱节的日子

真想充分地度过开学前的日子
想逛街想购物想娱乐

想不要开学

迟些日子就要搬入宿舍了
在远离文明的地方上学生活

看到以上文字的朋友们
要“识做”喔
有空的话
约我外出吧

残酷的现实－奢望＝无奈

2008-05-29T14:36:00.007+08:00

想一想
以下的建筑物让你联想到什么？请以第一印象诚实地回答。

/ 是廉价组屋吗？不是
// 是店铺吗？非也
/// Mamak大排档？危楼？错！

一

这是一间学院，全名为 Kolej Teknologi Timur （KTT），听起来蛮canggih的。东方科技学院，原来东方科技真的那么不堪。还是外国的月亮比较圆。

是的，没错，小弟即将在此就读一年半的A-levels，过后再到印度修读牙科。将来会到印度修读医科或牙科的JPA奖学金得主皆需在此耗上一年半的时间。那段期间，学生们都必须入住宿舍（不知惊吓程度又会是多少，真令人期待）。

根据资料显示，这间学院已有10年历史，标语是“… terus gemilang”。的确，这间学院有必要再接再厉。10年了，这间学院到底有没有进步过啊？！管理层到底在干什么？我承认我是外貌协会的秘书，经常以东西的外貌为之打分数。但，眼前这建筑物到底那一点算得上是学院啊？更别说是私人的。

幸好这间学院在Sepang，若是在Sunway区的话，铁定会被比下去，无地自容。要不是JPA派学生来就读，我看啊，这间学院肯定是无人问津。某些土人的能力的确是在其他人之下，真是同情。

所以啊，不要羡慕那些拿到JPA奖学金的人，并不是个个头上都顶着光环，尤其是那些将到印度去的人。当你见到他们时，请为印度这国家多说好话，以安抚他们的情绪。

那些有幸可到美国、英国、澳洲、德国... 深造的JPA奖学金得主，恭喜你们。你们前途一片光明。

从天堂掉下来

2008-05-28T13:46:00.004+08:00

终于等到JPA的信件了。

我只能说，非常失望。身边的人皆说我倒霉透顶，的确如此。别的JPA奖学金得主个个如鱼得水，而我则哀声不断。我前世烧了什么香？还是最近踩到狗K？真是快被霉气熏死了～～

我知道一定会有人在骂我：“人家要都没有啊，你这么幸运拿到奖学金却在那里唉声叹气，真是生在福中不知福。。。应好好反省。。。” 没错，我应该懂得惜福，但这毕竟不是一两天的事，而是关系到好几年耶。离乡背井没关系，若是去到与自己的理想相差九万八千里（不只这个数目）的地方去生活好几年，这才是叫悲哀。

不幸拿不到JPA奖学金的朋友，抱歉，请原谅我的不知足、不成熟。

我知道自己最后还是会接受此奖学金的。虽然以下的言论会给我带来一阵阵强烈炮轰，但是难道我就没权力发泄我的不满吗？我只需要5分钟。

坏我心情的敏感源：

Kursus persediaan di dalam negara
Pusat Persediaan : KOLEJ TEKNOLOGI TIMUR （闻所未闻，什么来的？！）
Tempoh : 18 BULAN
Program : A-LEVELS

Kursus ijazah pertama di luar negara
Institusi : UNIVERSITI DI INDIA （grr...）
Tempoh : 60 BULAN
Peringkat : IJAZAH
Bidang : PERGIGIAN

至于其他的合约内容，我还在研究。

人说印度以医学科闻名，标榜着高科技、先进...诸如此类的blah blah blah。大家都认同印度在医学系有着高深造诣，人云亦云，但是，真正有去过那里深造的人又有几个？？？难道说别的国家的水准就很低吗？印度就真的排第一吗？那么所谓的世界高等院校的排行榜是废话咯？印度的任何一间大学都挤不进前200名leh。我并不是在侮辱印度，该国的大专也一定有着某种水准，只不过如今现实惊醒了在幻想的我，令我不尽觉得纳闷。

有兴趣者，请点击= World University Rankings 2007 =

我还记得在JPA面试时考官反驳我一位同伴的话，她说：“U kena faham bahawa bukan India sahaja yang mahir dalam bidang yang berkaitan dengan perubatan, university-universiti yang lain juga mempunyai teknologi yang tinggi dalam bidang tersebut! U tau tak ramai yang beli sijil-sijil perubatan dari India?”

为什么别人可以去英国、澳洲、亦或是爱尔兰深造？为什么我必须待在亚洲的贫民窟内忍辱负重？是肤色的负面效应？还是自己不如人？为什么我总爱与人比较？为什么我越想得到的东西就越远离我？

生气、失望、伤心全都可以归档入“无助”，放肆地吞噬着希望。这起事件给了我一个教训，应该说是唤醒了我遗忘已久的信念：期望越高，失望越大。这样简单的道理，我竟然把它给忘了。。。真是活该！

如今可以安慰自己的只剩“人比人，比死人”这句不切实际的话了。

放弃需要勇气

2008-05-16T10:57:00.004+08:00

详阅那12页的国油赞助金合约后,发现有许多苛刻条件, 最后我选择忍痛放弃该赞助金 T_T。。。给予答复的截止时间是今天下午五点钟，逾时或没答复者一律被取消资格。

在那份合约内，其中10页满是字，看得头昏眼花。详阅之后，发现里头陷阱重重（还是我想太多？）。合约内容都是以国油利益为先，签约者若违反条规，后果不堪设想（有钱子弟另当别论）。合约内的经典条约如下：

1。签约者（我）是以借贷者的身份签署此合约。（好听的话是“赞助金”；难听的话是“借贷”）

2。签约者完成课程后，必须于一个月内到国油双峰塔XX部门报到，以被安排到某国油部门工作、或被派至其他国油所属公司、或政府部门工作。（选修工程科的人，“有期徒刑”十年）

3。服务期间，该员工，既签约者的薪水将被扣除一部分以偿还国油曾付出的所有费用。剩下的薪水，不知够喝一杯可乐或吃一碟椰浆饭？（所谓的“所有费用”至少有RM100K，单单国油给的生活津贴就有RM30K了。若加上其他的课程学费、各种津贴、学生保险。。。，可想而知，要偿还总数相当可观。）

4。若签约者违反条规（太多了）或毕业后没被安排任何工作，他必须在14天内偿还所有费用，不被附加利息（先小人后君子）。

还有，我个人觉得最暴笑的合约条约：
签约者（若签约前还未婚）必须在合约时限内保持单身，不可拥有婚姻关系。

拜托，人家是去读书的耶，不是去那里成家立室的。虽然如此，本人认为此条约的存在一定有着某些重要性，或许条约背后有着一段耐人寻味的故事。

基于此合约所带来的挑战和本人对物理与数学没好感的事实，我决定拒绝这赞助金（是贷款）。不知JPA的合约内容又是怎样的呢？

还是我应该暂且接受国油赞助金，好给自己留一条后路？算了啦，别想那么多，拒绝就拒绝吧，不要拖泥带水。

The "Tag" Game XD

2008-05-15T10:22:00.003+08:00

Here comes the english version...

What is the most important thing in your life?
~ Happiness :)

What was the last thing you bought with your own money?
~ Err.. let me see... clothes or movie ticket, can't recall la... going to spend money again tomorrow

Where do you wish to get married?
~ Ask me when i've decided to be held captive

How old do you think that you'll be permanantly owned by your lover?
~ Permanantly owned?? Sounds scarying... 30?

Are you in love?
~ Certainly, i love myself

Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
~Somewhere 5km from my house

Name the latest book you bought.
~ STPM Mathematics S & T... when was the last time i touch the book?

What is your full name?
~ Lim Boon Loey, totally different from the mandarin version

Do you prefer mother or father?
~ Depends...

Name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time.
~ Tang Tai Zong, one of the emperors of Dinasty Tang

Christina or Britney?
~ None!

Do you do your own laundry?
~ What's the point having a washing machine if i have to do my own laundry?

The most exciting place you want to go.
~ Australia or Oxford University in UK.

Hugs or kisses?
~ Both... in public... LOL

Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.
~ Teresa: smart, funny, independent, pretty, crazy XD

8 things i'm passionate about.
~ Happiness, career, money, love, family, friends, food, music

8 things i say too often.
~ Mmm... arh... oh... ya... huh?... hehe... dunno o... coi

8 books I've read recently.
~ It was ages ago... phD

8 songs i can listen to over and over again.
~ Jay Chow's song, Jolin's songs, Zhang Shao Han's songs, JJ's songs... and Negaraku

8 things i learnt last year.
~ Work hard, study smart, treasure my friends, laugh while i still can, rules are meant to be broken, say "yes" even the heart says "no", pressure and expectations make a person stronger, don't proscrastinate what should be done early

8 people you tagged.
~ Most of the bloggers that i know have been tagged. Just to name a person here, ermm... Ning Jui

Petronas Sponsorship

2008-05-13T20:39:00.010+08:00

5月9日那天得知自己获得于国油大学 (Universiti Teknologi Petronas) 深造的国油赞助金, 今午则收到了一份蛮重的快递邮件,邀请我到该大专就读。想起自己几个月前的无心插柳（贪爽申请此赞助金）如今却开花结果，现在感觉蛮怪的，不知自己走了什么运（明明今年犯太岁。。。）。

在超过10，000个申请者中，2000人被选中参与一个2天1夜的EduCamp（当中包括我，还有两个好友，俊杰与俊凯）。这所谓的“教育营”包含了各种活动，最重要的为心理测验、英语考试、脑筋激荡1、2及面试（分二回合，个人和组别），还有大家的最爱--校园游。

在那2000名学生当中，500名幸运儿被录取于国油大学就读，当中包括小弟我（不是在“串”ok?）。有一半的人于本地就读预科班, 再到国外把荣誉学士课程读完；剩余那另一半，包括我在内，则在本地把预科班及荣誉学士课程读完。其实在填妥网上表格时我们可以选择要在国外还是本地把课程读完，但由于本人当初只是包着碰运气的心态报名，因而“误按”pengajian tempatan按钮（咳，早知就不要乱乱来）。

噢，对了！我申请的是土木工程。一年foundation in engineering，四年 bachelor (hons) of civil engineering。毕业后必须再经过一轮的面试，有机会加入国油公司工作，或被派到其他公司或政府部门上班；若面试不成功，则须偿还所获得的一切学费及津贴。。。

那份快递邮件里满的是文件、表格，要看完所有文件至少需一小时，填表格、签名也会手软。不过，最吸引我的是以下：
Living allowance: RM6000 per year
Book allowance: RM 800 per year
Instrument allowance : RM150 per year
Tuition fees fully sponsored by Petronas.

如果把五年的生活津贴都存起来（我知道这不可能，只是说如果），五年后就有RM30，000，可买一辆车了（kancil...）。很多人都叫我接受此赞助金，毕竟得来不易，又钱途光明，但风险仍然存在。我还在考虑要不要接受该赞助金。

好了，晒够了，太阳也下山了（开玩笑啦），收工！

Join NASA's Return to the Moon

2008-05-08T10:03:00.003+08:00

Sign up to send your name to the moon. Names will be collected and placed onboard the LRO spacecraft for its historic mission bringing NASA back to the moon. You will also receive a certificate showcasing your support of the mission.

The deadline is June 27, 2008 for the submission of names.

LRO's objectives are to find safe landing sites, locate potential resources, characterize the radiation environment, and demonstrate new technology.

Link: http://lro.jhuapl.edu/NameToMoon/

矛盾

2008-05-06T10:42:00.006+08:00

查出了自己被录取于 SMK Batu 8 就读中六课程

又是烦的时候了

烦什么？？

当然是烦要不要接受该“邀请”咯

读政府大学？私立大专？

Form 6? A-levels?

最糟糕的

是必须在这星期内作出决定

下星期一必须到该校报到

否则当拒绝论

U have been tagged!!

2008-04-24T13:49:00.005+08:00

游戲規則：
被點到名字的要在自己的博客裏寫下自己的答案，然後去掉一個你最不喜歡的問題再补上一個你的問題，仍然組成20個問題，傳給其他8個人，列出其他8個需要回答問題的人的名字，還要到這8個人的博客裏留言通知對方----你被點名了，被點名者不得拒絕回答問題，完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福。

這8個人要在自己的博客裏註明是從哪裏接到的，並且再傳給其他8個人，讓遊戲繼續下去，不得回傳。被點到名字的人將會得到大家的祝福，並且所有美好的願望都會在不久的將來實現。

1. 如果你有特异功能, 你会干什么？
答: 免费环游世界.

2. 最满意你身体的哪一部分？
答: 手指.

3. 你最喜歡的溝通方式?
答: 开门见山、不顾仪态.

4. 希望有个怎样的恋爱？
答: 开心就好.

5. 你最想去哪个地方？
答: 澳洲.

6. 最受不了自己哪个缺点？
答: 空想.

7. 如果有不开心的事情，你会怎么办？
答: 找人吐苦水.

8. 最害怕失去的东西？
答: 身高.

9. 现在最想做的事？
答: 旅游、花钱.

10. 若遇見喜歡的人，你會怎樣做？
答: 没怎样.

11. 说出点你名的人的3个优点。
答: 宁芮:人缘好、有种、酷！

12. 最想跟朋友做的事.
答: 畅谈、玩乐.

13. 遇到不喜歡的人﹐你會怎樣拒絕?
答: 婉转地暗示.

14. 你最讨厌怎样的人？
答: 靠特权拥有一切的人.

15. 你最难过的事情。
答: 得不到想要的东西.

16. 你觉得最美的事物是什么？
答: 让人心情愉悦的任何事物.

17. 你认为遇到什么样的事情才会令你觉得人性很黑暗？
答: 无辜被找麻烦.

18. 你的心愿是。。。
答: 万事如意.

19. 觉得人生最重要的事情是什么？
答: 快乐.

20.世界上最遥远的距离，不是天涯海角，也不是我在你面前你不知道我爱你，而是？
答: 想念的人不在眼前.

我點: Hong Wei, Samantha

Just Pour All

2008-04-03T17:06:00.003+08:00

今早我参加了我国公共服务局--JPA 所举办的奖学金面试活动. 我只能说一句：漫长的等待是种折磨！不只是等待面试日的到来，等待自己的turn也会令自己的心情不能安定下来。

在那里，我领悟到“同人不同命”的道理: 也许很多人与你同一天生日，甚至只有几小时的差别，然而，那人的命运和你相比却可以有着天壤之别。与我同组的一位马来女生比我迟三小时出世，但她双亲皆为医生，父亲是医院骨科部门的主席和马大的医学教授，母亲是妇产科部门的主席，而她本身是保龄球国家代表，所获文凭如半个砖块厚，志愿是当骨科医生。。。

很了不起的家世背景。真的是人各有命。

JPA的奖学金是大马学生抢破头的一个奖学金。在面试会场，你会发现大家的成就一山还比一山高，真的大开耳界。面试时，大家都需把各自的成功史倒完出来（Just Pour All ma, hehe)，好好向面试官推销自己，让他们知道自己到底有什么与众不同，为什么特别。好自恋的自我介绍，恶～，真不习惯。

这次的面试让人增广见闻，学习新事物，是个蛮不错的体验（第一次感受嘴唇，牙齿，牙龈干燥的感觉）。

重获自由

2008-03-30T23:23:00.002+08:00

今天是我工作的最后一天
明天开始不受别人的束缚
可以重新操控自己的人生

原本是应该工作到明天
谁知今早发生了小插曲
点燃了我心中的怒火
迫使我改变计划
以另类的方式
结束了我人生中第一份工作

虽是蛮生气
但重获自由的感觉却令我感到安慰

无心的举动，也许就是真心的选择

2008-03-21T14:36:00.005+08:00

当眼前满是选择时
自己却不知如何抉择

随意决定了以后
却又作出多番改变

不经三思的改变
就是为了找寻适合自己的
自己喜欢的

当事情已成定局
不能再更改了
那时才恍然大悟
原来自己最想要的
竟是当初随意的抉择

选错了改不了

是错失了机会
还是学会了一堂课？

So Unfortunate

2008-03-18T09:20:00.002+08:00

...

I'm having chicken pox

...

never mind

...

no need 2 work for a week

当现实比梦想更美

2008-03-12T18:50:00.002+08:00

原以为自己的道德科、历史科与EST
会拿不到A
没想到全都是A1

总的来说
我的SPM成绩为：
11XX，1XX
(那些全A1生真的很欠打！）

不管怎样
我的成绩比我想象中好很多倍
实在是太开心了！

我不只为成绩感到开心
也为自己有史以来
不受期待和担心成绩
所带来的压力影响
却还过得轻松
睡得香甜

一切只因
期望不高失望不大

还有
今天有整20余人
怂恿（是建议啦）本人
修读医科

我是有点想啦
但我不想读Form 6 eh
怎么办？？？
我真的适合读医科吗？
医科又适合我吗？

From 17 to 18

2008-03-05T22:08:00.002+08:00

Thanks to those who wished me Epi Burfday

especially the unexpected ones

B'day wishes:

1st wish dedicated to my family

2nd wish exclusively for my friends

last but not least, happiness & good health for myself

Once again

Thanks for remembering my b'day!

The Most Significant Occasion of 2008

2008-03-04T23:34:00.003+08:00

Note: No offence, just something to laugh at this tension period!

人各有命

2008-02-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

当你舒舒服服躺坐在车里
往校园去时
我呆坐于拥挤的巴士
朝另一个方向去

当你懒洋洋地坐在椅子上
左耳进右耳出时
我双脚站直
话说不停直到口干
只为别人能听下我半句话

当你为有书读感到辛苦
我为工作感到厌烦

当你在虚度用不完的光阴
我感概24小时的仓促

当你拥有我渴望的一切
*
*
*
*
*
*

我一点儿也不羡慕你

意外

2008-01-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

母亲的车
被一个肥婶的车磨花了

当时母亲不在车内
车内只有我
肥婶还装作没事
光顾了Toto再去Da Ma Cai
以买个光明钱途

母亲与肥婶说了几句
肥婶致电丈夫
然而
事情仍谈不妥
他们不肯赔偿
肥婶的丈夫更挑战母亲
：“去报警啦！”

好吧
就报警咯
反正我闲着没事做

警方说会把他们列入黑名单
以教训他们
虽然没获得赔偿
但结果仍令人满意

巧遇

2008-01-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

今天于上班地点的饮食中心享用晚餐后
巧遇一位恩师
于是上前打了个招呼

在等待热腾腾的瓦煲伊面之余
X师也大方地把时间浪费在我身上
与我闲聊几句

从她口中得知
一些老师皆有浏览此部落格
看来我的一切遭遇
已成为老师们茶余饭后的甜点了

我的悲观消极
似乎已引起了回响
在短短几天内
我的确丰富了不少人生经验
也看清了世俗见高就拜见低就踩的风气

我当然是被踩的咯
有什么办法？
吃苦当吃补咯

说的倒是潇洒
但每当被人蹂躏时
心情难免还是会被破坏

算了吧
有缘见到X师
整天的心情还蛮好的

题外事：相信八卦的读者们一定想知道X师究竟是哪一位，那么请在留言板内反映吧。我一定会将X幸运儿的大头照放出来接受大家的注目礼。

Disastrous ruin on my mood

2008-01-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

Working is not as enjoyable as I used to imagine
Lots of rules blocking my way

This evening, I was, again, being scolded and warned by people
Never been humiliated so badly before
And being stared and discouraged by people who I'll never respect
Just because I have thick and relatively long hair compared to the
NS-style short cut which is being taken as standard hair style for boys

I'm typing this message in a very very bad mood
Trying to keep my anger and sadness in a stable composure

Should I succumb to the rules?
Can anyone understand and help me?

Vast dark skies without any star...

2008年第二个突破

2008-01-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

今天我当上了人生第一次的上班族
比起很多人
我知道我也算很迟了

上下班公共巴士成了我的依靠
已经与公共交通工具断绝关系那么多年
真的很久很久了
更别说只身面对一切未知数
我从来也没尝试过

一个人乘搭巴士的经验
我一定毕生难忘

当"白领阶级" 其实也没想像中好玩
穿了一身斯文装
再配上一双让我痛苦不堪的皮鞋
我才恍然大悟
现实总比幻想来得残酷

其实
上学比工作来得幸福
虽然我从不相信这"歪理"
然而惟有真正经历过这一切
才会明白当中所蕴含的哲理

对于我投身社会的地点
对不起暂时卖个关子
有缘分的话
也许你会偶然遇见我
目前只有二人知道我的藏身之处
其实要找到我一点也不难

哎脚很痛

2008年第一个突破

2008-01-01T23:10:00.001+08:00

今天上了第一堂驾驶训练课
比起同龄的朋友我算迟了

车子在路上爬着
才时速四十公里最快则才六十
对于新手没办法啦
就算被不耐烦咬得脚痒痒也得忍

路程一路顺风
撇开乌龟速度不讲今天表现还算不错
教练问了一句 :"Sudah berlatih banyak kali kan?"
- Hanya satu kali...

不知下次表现会如何?
希望不会糟糕

Home-to-be

2007-12-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

Found a room to stay during my study at UTAR Petaling campus

1 year...

Small, but got another bigger one (if share with other people)
Old, all the houses there are ancient
Harsh condition (for me)
Never live alone in such situation

Key point: every house around that UTAR is very old

No friend at all
Whole new environment for me
Takes quite a long time for me to fit into the environment
Dunno can survive or not

Plus, the landlord quite mata $$$$

My FAQ: any guy interested to study at UTAR?
I desperately in need of a roommate

Headache

2007-12-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

It's even worse than brainstorming to solve silly Add. Maths. questions
Choosing the RIGHT institute for my tertiery education really splits my brains apart
Selecting the RIGHT course is tougher than squeezing brain juices

Time range of course is my consideration
Financial aid and scholarships are my beloved

5-year study of the same course at 2 different institutes
1 costs me a great bomb but gives me a Master degree
1 separates me from financial worries but can only give me a Honours degree

Who can help me to decide?

考而不死是为神

2007-12-05T10:01:00.000+08:00

考完试了！
可当神仙了！

当然不是自封为神
取其道不取其神
只是说可以得到片刻悠闲清静
充电后再朝下一个目标迈步

五年的中学生涯
等的就是这一刻
真的很佩服自己的耐力毅力
当然不只我一个
身边的朋友都是
那么的有耐心

最庆幸的
是自己没被压力绊倒

所以说呀
考而不死是为神也

佩服佩服

Aspirasi 2007

2007-11-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

Woo...h! Finally it's over!

With the release of the 3rd school magazine
my role as the CE is finally a history
no more mag-related works, mag-related worries

Quite sad because have no feeling(s) holding the magazine
had been touching every page for more than thousand times
no more surprise and excitement for me
perhaps that's what I have to "pay" for being involved in the whole process

Nevertheless
still would like to thank my fellow editorial members
especially Kingston and Teck Yan
for fuelling the production of the magazine
nice working with you all
no regret joining the editorial board

Any comment(s) about the magazine?
Really eager to know.

Note: I use english here because I'm lazy to turn on the Chinese Star programme.

任务终于结束

2007-11-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

终于结束了一整年的校刊工作

谢谢老师的指导和监督
让我没有机会懒下来

谢谢一大班朋友的合作与协助
让我顺利度过烦恼的时刻

在此点名点名排列不分先后只限我族

世彬德源福源福泰嘉美明汉
汉良俊凯国颜嘉敏宇薇润雪
凯贤宁芮凤贤佳恩婉琪颖芳
业葆涵颖瑞莹 KEE yenFEN sooCHEE

谢了!

不被了解的痛苦

2007-10-31T00:16:00.000+08:00

几天前得了一个奖项
看上去是蛮威风的
我却悲喜交集

大家都对我抱以厚望
可又知道
我的压力倍增吗？

你们总觉得我会不负众望愿望成真
你们把一切希望套在我身上
虽没说出口但我知道你们的想法
：只许成功不许失败

我的压力很大
深怕会令大家大失所望
时间又剩下不多
准备功夫却又才刚开始不久
我真的很怕很辛苦
说出去别人却又以为我在晒命
觉得我是在无病呻吟
真是可悲
却没人知道

有谁可以与我分担压力呢？

单纯 . 快乐

2007-10-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

为了毕业典礼
我必须准备几张照片
幼儿时期全家福现在的我
以上三种

更被逼于当日
让上百名观众洗注目礼
真是不堪设想

骇然发现
幼年时的我
流露着单纯天真快乐的气息
毫不虚伪

比对现在的我
快乐已不再属于我
脸上那濒临绝种的笑容
破坏了整张照片的美感
难怪花了那么多的时间
仍找不出一张让我
满意觉得自然的照片

单纯与快乐渐行渐远
倘若我拼命的追
我还捉得到它们吗?

轻松了很多

2007-10-17T23:05:00.000+08:00

手里捧着那厚重的文件夹
还有里面上百的纸张
心里感触甚多

这么多个月的辛劳付出忍耐
还有很多很多
都不知是怎么熬过来的

压力像计时炸弹般置于体内
深怕会被突如其来的刺激引爆
我不断的与时间赛跑
想在炸弹爆开前逃离
更想在它把我毁灭前
拆除它

炸弹
其实只是一个玩弄自己的道具
希望它永远都只是一个道具死物
不再威胁我更不要再折磨我

再一会儿
我就要跑到终点了
可以把手中的文件夹抛开
永别

简单一句 well done
神奇地让我忘去一切不愉快
记忆中的不耐烦抱怨坏脾气
被清除了

真舒服

搞不懂

2007-10-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

SPM前的第27天

时间在倒数中
虽然一向来不喜欢倒数的感觉
这次却不一样
不知为何

今天所作的准备功夫
比昨天多
少了宠坏自己的借口
少了浪费时间的休息

是该快乐还是担心
我搞不懂
快乐因为实践了对自己的承诺
担心因为害怕努力只是刹那

顿时的决心
会接踵而来
还是昙花一现

看来
担心在脑袋里塞车
快乐淹没车龙中
为什么

我搞不懂

倒数

2007-10-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

一二三 ...
只剩大约四个星期
命运就要交于他人
我的路我的命
不再属于我

我能做什么?
决定权将溜离我手
空气般看不见捉不住拦不了
任它摆布
任它蹂躏自己的思想心情灵魂
一切的一切
已不再十拿九稳

我讨厌被控制的人生
被剥夺的选择权与快乐
使我无助无奈

虽然被控制遥控
我绝不退让
就算所剩的权力屈指可数
我还是要趁那天来临前
靠自己的力量
扭转乾坤
也许有效也许只是白费功夫
至少我曾努力过

祝我成功
愿我的毅力替我铺出迈向梦想的路

dominate or coexist?

放过我吧

回忆是最可怕的敌人

BTN Camp

My blog is finally OLD!

Harassment

Ignorance = bliss?

Suswagata, Jana & Dana

I feel like a loser

Penang Trip

A Night to Remember

It all ended

另类固执

Bumblebee Halloween Costume

Mass Destruction

Synopsis

Synopsis

被点中！

Mantoux Test

Classification of tuberculin reaction

Bedtime Stories

Everything shall return normal

Back. Finally.

Scholarship virus

Trash

Don't be stupid

All about DREAMS

My wishlist

Short Story

是第19，也是第1次

好久不见

到底怎么了？

独白

谈未来

同学会

哀

十分红演唱会

深思？省思？想太多？

我回来了

冲上云霄

被搞得团团转

矛盾

开斋节庆典

一篇感人肺腑的故事

考试季节到了

要开学了

道别

有假期=霉假期

八月十九的中秋

角色扮演

对不起

中秋晚会

肺话

七仔

适应中

自我剖白

你一定不知道你就是“你”

放假了！！

欲哭无泪

当自信与0划上等号

PICOM PC Fair

比较

ANNOUNCEMENT

“惊喜”

End of 2nd Week at KTT

Back with stories about KTT

A New "TAG" Game

无法控制思绪的悲哀

回味无穷

想与不想

残酷的现实－奢望＝无奈

从天堂掉下来

放弃 需要勇气

The "Tag" Game XD

Petronas Sponsorship

Join NASA's Return to the Moon

矛盾

U have been tagged!!

Just Pour All

重获自由

放弃需要勇气